Thank you.
For the escape out of this cruel reality.
For the times you made my heart ascend to the heaven in heaven.
For making me find an identity.
For the comfort.
For making me rediscover true pain.
For making me experience different personalities.
For giving me a reason to smile when I start my day.
Sorry.
For being so rude.
For not listening.
For making you frustrated.
For whatever I did not do.
For whatever I did do.
For being what you don’t like.
For that it had to be you.
Thank you for being you,
and I'm sorry for being me.
I want to say this to you, but you told me not to say I love you. I'll save it for when we are as close as strangers are.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
the 2010 semester starts.
I was only setting up for a joke. It was supposed to end with me saying "you say you're not shallow, but you look stunningly gorgeous. There is no way you can naturally look like that." I'm sure she got offended, and I just have this feeling that she just won't believe in me anymore. I want to talk to her, but I can't. I think I have to wait a bit, this isn't the time to joke around anyways. And what good will be in it for me? Nothing. I keep making the same mistakes, and I can't seem to fix them either anymore. I need to keep this friendship if I'm going to marry her. So I'll wait for a bit. I need our feelings to calm down. She doesn't trust me, and how can she trust me after all I said? Yup.
Today was the first day of class. I didn't have a calculator so I was slow in doing that chemistry math ready exam. I got 17/20, I haven't had a math class in awhile so I struggled using common sense from previous math courses. My teacher is awesome. Hella smart people will get a D, but diligent and average people will get a B. I like how he teaches, he has that natural teaching and talking ability like the other good teachers I ever had. I'll do my best this semester.
In lab today, I was going to be partnered up with Vanessa from my old english class. She didn't remember me, most likely because I had shorter hair. We shook hands, and then her Asian friend started talking to her. I was going to be happy because I was with two other hard working people. But then I see Phyu Phyu, and I became her lab partner instead because she asked me, and Vanessa looked like she wanted to be with her Asian friend. We're supposed to have three lab partners though, so I was going to ask the professor if we can have a foursome but I didn't. We connected so well though, I didn't think we could because back in high school, I would give her the cold shoulder, just because she was seen as a loser. But it was nice talking to her, she opened up to me, and I could easily open up my side. Maybe its just because I know I'm better than her. We share a lot of hobbies, and I learned that she has to work to take care of the rest of her family, and she's working paying for herself to go to school. I'm glad I'm her partner though, I feel like this will be a fun semester.
After that, my family spent dinner, first time at Black Angus. The food is okay, I like the atmosphere and the waiter more though. He was cool, he was nice at first and happy, and when my mom gave him a $10 tip, he got even more happy so its cool how people can get happier than happy.
Today was the first day of class. I didn't have a calculator so I was slow in doing that chemistry math ready exam. I got 17/20, I haven't had a math class in awhile so I struggled using common sense from previous math courses. My teacher is awesome. Hella smart people will get a D, but diligent and average people will get a B. I like how he teaches, he has that natural teaching and talking ability like the other good teachers I ever had. I'll do my best this semester.
In lab today, I was going to be partnered up with Vanessa from my old english class. She didn't remember me, most likely because I had shorter hair. We shook hands, and then her Asian friend started talking to her. I was going to be happy because I was with two other hard working people. But then I see Phyu Phyu, and I became her lab partner instead because she asked me, and Vanessa looked like she wanted to be with her Asian friend. We're supposed to have three lab partners though, so I was going to ask the professor if we can have a foursome but I didn't. We connected so well though, I didn't think we could because back in high school, I would give her the cold shoulder, just because she was seen as a loser. But it was nice talking to her, she opened up to me, and I could easily open up my side. Maybe its just because I know I'm better than her. We share a lot of hobbies, and I learned that she has to work to take care of the rest of her family, and she's working paying for herself to go to school. I'm glad I'm her partner though, I feel like this will be a fun semester.
After that, my family spent dinner, first time at Black Angus. The food is okay, I like the atmosphere and the waiter more though. He was cool, he was nice at first and happy, and when my mom gave him a $10 tip, he got even more happy so its cool how people can get happier than happy.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
tired. nauseated.
It’s my turn. You keep picking on me on little things, so I’ll do the same since you want to be treated the same way you treat others. Stop. Provoking. Me. I can't live up to YOUR standards. And I won't live up to what you want. I won't stop being suspicious, I won't stop lying, and I won't stop being hypocritical. YOU DO THAT TOO. IT'S BECAUSE WE'RE HUMAN. I don't care about working for you anymore. And I'm finally going to say that I can't believe I wasted my good words on YOU.
1. You ran away when you called me a liar. You don’t like it when other people ran away, yet you did.
2. “Doesn’t it make you wonder what my REAL opinion of you is?”
3. You said we can’t be friends because I haven’t moved on, yet after that you said it’s okay to love you.
4. When you said its okay that I love you, and I start doing stuff then you say you don’t like me loving you.
5. You said you hate your parents but you’re still living with them.
6. You say you don’t do to others that you don’t want them to do to you. You called friends bitches; you get angry at your friends. So you’re okay getting angried at and you like being called a bitch? I don’t think so; you’re overly sensitive and shy.
7. When you were talking about a friend’s problem, you said that the guy is waiting for the girl to break up with her boyfriend, but actually you said that she’s using the guy as backup since she knows he’s waiting for her, when she breaks up with the actual BF, she will win with another guy anyways. Is this how you’re treating me, using me? And you said that you just like talking to me.
8. You said your bf is too shy to talk to you in web cam. And when I said I was shy you said that our relationship isn’t progressing. So wuhh? Your relationship with your bf isn’t growing, what kind of relationship is that?
9. You say I don’t listen to you, and I do listen to you. And you’re assuming that I don’t because what I do doesn’t match what you want me to do.
10. You say you’re not shallow and you don’t care about people’s appearance, yet you yourself look stunningly beautiful.
11. You brought up Meteor again.
12. You’re not asking me questions either.
13. You say you’re smart (You say "HUH?!" a lot, JUST READ THE LINE AGAIN OR ASK SOMETHING MORE SPECIFIC.).
14. You say that you want to help me become a better person, yet I’m a better person than you. What gives you the right to judge a person for being "better" than others?
15. You’re living proof of failed friendships.
16. You say we’re friends but whenever you get so angry it’s always me who has to chase after you (it's a hassle, and a lot of work to come up with what I have to say).
17. You say we’re just friends but you’re trying to make this friendship progress.
18. Telling me to talk, but you’re not talking to me.
19. You don’t like being annoyed, yet you’re irritating me so much.
20. You got mad at me for saying that I moved on.
21. You got mad at me for training with Chelle.
22. You complained about Lightnos only training with a Bishop yet you do the same.
23. You complain about complainers, though that’s a contradiction because you’re still complaining and complaining is complaining.
24. You're unappreciative.
25. You're not understanding.
26. You're saying I don't talk to you yet you're the one with my phone number.
27. You blocked me on MSN. And you want me to talk to you on MSN.
28. You say you tell me a problem you're having with me, but you don't. And I have proof that you did say "tbh I was annoyed with you these past weeks" and you said that you told me this before you said that.
I want to say something mean. You and your boyfriend don't talk much not because of the 9 hour difference, but because he's annoyed with you and can't put up with your shit.
I’m a nice guy. But I'm starting to not like you. You’re rude, greedy, irritating, annoying, self-centered, egotistical, hypocritical, dark-hearted, problem causing, not understanding, And YOU think you deserve friends. I was HAPPY the way I am. And I think I learned a lot about life with you. I learned that you suck, and I like all my friends more than you. I always wanted you to keep up with them, so I spent more time with you. Plus there was that thing where I fell for you.
If you're trying to help me, you're not doing your best.
I know one truth though. You REALLY don't know me. After spending time with me for six months, you really don't know me =_=
I spend a lot of time with my family. I know them. And OUR PERSONALITIES CLASH. We're DIFFERENT. YET we are still able to be happy and enjoy life together. Someone has to give in. I bet you think you're better than them. I did that before and it doesn't turn out very nice.
But I'm going to stop here. It's really my fault. I'm not listening. I keep making the same mistakes. I have to make things better. It starts with not loving you.
1. You ran away when you called me a liar. You don’t like it when other people ran away, yet you did.
2. “Doesn’t it make you wonder what my REAL opinion of you is?”
3. You said we can’t be friends because I haven’t moved on, yet after that you said it’s okay to love you.
4. When you said its okay that I love you, and I start doing stuff then you say you don’t like me loving you.
5. You said you hate your parents but you’re still living with them.
6. You say you don’t do to others that you don’t want them to do to you. You called friends bitches; you get angry at your friends. So you’re okay getting angried at and you like being called a bitch? I don’t think so; you’re overly sensitive and shy.
7. When you were talking about a friend’s problem, you said that the guy is waiting for the girl to break up with her boyfriend, but actually you said that she’s using the guy as backup since she knows he’s waiting for her, when she breaks up with the actual BF, she will win with another guy anyways. Is this how you’re treating me, using me? And you said that you just like talking to me.
8. You said your bf is too shy to talk to you in web cam. And when I said I was shy you said that our relationship isn’t progressing. So wuhh? Your relationship with your bf isn’t growing, what kind of relationship is that?
9. You say I don’t listen to you, and I do listen to you. And you’re assuming that I don’t because what I do doesn’t match what you want me to do.
10. You say you’re not shallow and you don’t care about people’s appearance, yet you yourself look stunningly beautiful.
11. You brought up Meteor again.
12. You’re not asking me questions either.
13. You say you’re smart (You say "HUH?!" a lot, JUST READ THE LINE AGAIN OR ASK SOMETHING MORE SPECIFIC.).
14. You say that you want to help me become a better person, yet I’m a better person than you. What gives you the right to judge a person for being "better" than others?
15. You’re living proof of failed friendships.
16. You say we’re friends but whenever you get so angry it’s always me who has to chase after you (it's a hassle, and a lot of work to come up with what I have to say).
17. You say we’re just friends but you’re trying to make this friendship progress.
18. Telling me to talk, but you’re not talking to me.
19. You don’t like being annoyed, yet you’re irritating me so much.
20. You got mad at me for saying that I moved on.
21. You got mad at me for training with Chelle.
22. You complained about Lightnos only training with a Bishop yet you do the same.
23. You complain about complainers, though that’s a contradiction because you’re still complaining and complaining is complaining.
24. You're unappreciative.
25. You're not understanding.
26. You're saying I don't talk to you yet you're the one with my phone number.
27. You blocked me on MSN. And you want me to talk to you on MSN.
28. You say you tell me a problem you're having with me, but you don't. And I have proof that you did say "tbh I was annoyed with you these past weeks" and you said that you told me this before you said that.
I want to say something mean. You and your boyfriend don't talk much not because of the 9 hour difference, but because he's annoyed with you and can't put up with your shit.
I’m a nice guy. But I'm starting to not like you. You’re rude, greedy, irritating, annoying, self-centered, egotistical, hypocritical, dark-hearted, problem causing, not understanding, And YOU think you deserve friends. I was HAPPY the way I am. And I think I learned a lot about life with you. I learned that you suck, and I like all my friends more than you. I always wanted you to keep up with them, so I spent more time with you. Plus there was that thing where I fell for you.
If you're trying to help me, you're not doing your best.
I know one truth though. You REALLY don't know me. After spending time with me for six months, you really don't know me =_=
I spend a lot of time with my family. I know them. And OUR PERSONALITIES CLASH. We're DIFFERENT. YET we are still able to be happy and enjoy life together. Someone has to give in. I bet you think you're better than them. I did that before and it doesn't turn out very nice.
But I'm going to stop here. It's really my fault. I'm not listening. I keep making the same mistakes. I have to make things better. It starts with not loving you.
what I was before.
I think I was a better person before. The more I think of it, the more I believe in it. I guess I am a hypocrite, but its not what I say that matters, its always what I actually DO that matters. And I think I do good. I don't hurt anyone (I hope!) and I don't feel bad afterwords. So I guess being a hypocrite is okay. I manage to fix problems.
Loving her has changed my attitude. She made me really weak. One mistake, one time making her angry, and she'd kill me. So I was always very careful. I knew what she really did not like, and I did my best to avoid it. But it backfired. Just one negative thought spawning from my brain, made me have to release it and tell her. I know we're not perfect, and I know she's not expecting perfection, so I had to give my bad side away so easily. Actually, maybe I am perfect, but I do make mistakes, though I think perfection is still being able to mend those mistakes. Anyways, saying bad stuff made me look all bad. I should learn to just calm down.
I can truly say that I loved her. She was my type. 100% my type. But I have to let her go. If I said I was truly her friend, I wouldn't mind her rejecting me. I would just talk to her. If I loved her so much, I would have visited her already.
She liked who I was before. It's a fact, she treated me much better back then. When I didn't share my thoughts. She'll never believe me now... but I'll keep talking to her. We're friends, right? There are so much things I wanted to know, and I want to know where exactly I made my mistakes, and I did assume the worse.
I want to know the truth, and it starts with asking her.
"How long have you been with your boyfriend? How did you meet? How does he treat you? I don't want to assume anything anymore."
After that, I'll be happy. I really hope we can become really good friends. I'll never confess to her. I'll tell her about the girls I see. I'll tell her that I'm dating blah blah blah. I'll tell her everything about me. I know I'm a good person already, she doesn't need to make me better. I know what to do, and I just didn't because loving her screwed me up. All along, I know that I'm honest and genuine... except that I kept assuming and I didn't talk.
I just know that I'm a better person than her. From a sky view, she only has a few friends, and a true friend she needs to have to survive. I'd feel uncomfortable if I had a really close friend. She hates her family, I love my family. She's not really doing anything, she's just sitting. I'm going to school. She helps people who she wants to help. I help anyone who asks. She gets really angry. I think people who get angry are pathetic. She gets annoyed easily. I don't mind being annoyed. She's influencing my thinking. Not anymore, I don't think I want to like her that way.
All I want to do though, is to go back to the way things once were. I know we'll part, but I want her memory of me to be like what I was before, before I loved her.
Loving her has changed my attitude. She made me really weak. One mistake, one time making her angry, and she'd kill me. So I was always very careful. I knew what she really did not like, and I did my best to avoid it. But it backfired. Just one negative thought spawning from my brain, made me have to release it and tell her. I know we're not perfect, and I know she's not expecting perfection, so I had to give my bad side away so easily. Actually, maybe I am perfect, but I do make mistakes, though I think perfection is still being able to mend those mistakes. Anyways, saying bad stuff made me look all bad. I should learn to just calm down.
I can truly say that I loved her. She was my type. 100% my type. But I have to let her go. If I said I was truly her friend, I wouldn't mind her rejecting me. I would just talk to her. If I loved her so much, I would have visited her already.
She liked who I was before. It's a fact, she treated me much better back then. When I didn't share my thoughts. She'll never believe me now... but I'll keep talking to her. We're friends, right? There are so much things I wanted to know, and I want to know where exactly I made my mistakes, and I did assume the worse.
I want to know the truth, and it starts with asking her.
"How long have you been with your boyfriend? How did you meet? How does he treat you? I don't want to assume anything anymore."
After that, I'll be happy. I really hope we can become really good friends. I'll never confess to her. I'll tell her about the girls I see. I'll tell her that I'm dating blah blah blah. I'll tell her everything about me. I know I'm a good person already, she doesn't need to make me better. I know what to do, and I just didn't because loving her screwed me up. All along, I know that I'm honest and genuine... except that I kept assuming and I didn't talk.
I just know that I'm a better person than her. From a sky view, she only has a few friends, and a true friend she needs to have to survive. I'd feel uncomfortable if I had a really close friend. She hates her family, I love my family. She's not really doing anything, she's just sitting. I'm going to school. She helps people who she wants to help. I help anyone who asks. She gets really angry. I think people who get angry are pathetic. She gets annoyed easily. I don't mind being annoyed. She's influencing my thinking. Not anymore, I don't think I want to like her that way.
All I want to do though, is to go back to the way things once were. I know we'll part, but I want her memory of me to be like what I was before, before I loved her.
Friday, January 22, 2010
so long.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm a total mess.
I like her because of her values and virtues, though I don't know all of it. What she says, her wants, are like mine. I value trust, I don't like hypocrites, and I want people to talk to me. However, she's missing the understanding, or I'm just paranoid.
I'm glad to know that there are other people like me, though probably I am actually not like her at all. I would really like to meet her in real life, however, I'm confident that things will be different. I may not like her, and she may not like me. Therefore, no more online relationships for me unless I meet someone who lives really close by.
In the back of my mind, I listen to everyone. Long distance relationships don't work. It's unpractical to do what I do. At the same time, I'm trying to be practical, but I still have doubts. I should just ask to clear the doubts up, but first I have to trust. People are complicated and everyone else is.
Its not screwing my mind that much. It has helped me think of what I really want. I ONLY care about myself, and that's the truth. I like to settle things off, and end things nicely with what I want them to know and learn. And therefore, I ONLY care about MYSELF. I wish this weren't true, but it is. I shouldn't be desperate, its unattractive and only brings the world down.
I feel like I can't trust her anymore anyways. She's only being my friend for the sake of her not losing any more friends. I'll ask her that. For the past few days or weeks, she hasn't said anything appreciative, or even a simple thank you. I'll ask.
I have another thought. Maybe I'm a hypocrite because I'm pushing my thoughts into thinking what SHE would like. And the thoughts I have previously before conflicts with it, causing me to say one thing, and saying another thing totally contradicting it. My previous thought, and the thought that SHE would like. The only cure: not love her. Be myself by having my own previous thoughts. And then there's another thought. I'm saying things to not make her angry. To make her feel good. And saying something contradicting affects it. I hope she tells me when I'm being hypocritical though. But do I really care about it? I feel okay afterward unless it makes US awkward. And usually it does, so therefore I care about it. Basically, I think all along I've just been trying to impress her.
I don't know what I'll be so I shouldn't predict? Wise words of uncle Rich:
"We all have a choice, but we cannot choose the consequences of our choice.....so choose wisely"
Lets make it really basic, in the big picture, without any whys:
-I want people to like me
-I want to be BETTER than the guys I don't like
-I want to get married to her
And WITH whys, I start doubting myself.
Oh shit fuck this shit, I'm vacuuming the house.
And dammit I should finish my thoughts but It'll take forever. Fuck fuck fuck, no wonder I fail. But that's assuming that's the reason. Shit, she's making me do shit that I shouldn't even think of.
I like her because of her values and virtues, though I don't know all of it. What she says, her wants, are like mine. I value trust, I don't like hypocrites, and I want people to talk to me. However, she's missing the understanding, or I'm just paranoid.
I'm glad to know that there are other people like me, though probably I am actually not like her at all. I would really like to meet her in real life, however, I'm confident that things will be different. I may not like her, and she may not like me. Therefore, no more online relationships for me unless I meet someone who lives really close by.
In the back of my mind, I listen to everyone. Long distance relationships don't work. It's unpractical to do what I do. At the same time, I'm trying to be practical, but I still have doubts. I should just ask to clear the doubts up, but first I have to trust. People are complicated and everyone else is.
Its not screwing my mind that much. It has helped me think of what I really want. I ONLY care about myself, and that's the truth. I like to settle things off, and end things nicely with what I want them to know and learn. And therefore, I ONLY care about MYSELF. I wish this weren't true, but it is. I shouldn't be desperate, its unattractive and only brings the world down.
I feel like I can't trust her anymore anyways. She's only being my friend for the sake of her not losing any more friends. I'll ask her that. For the past few days or weeks, she hasn't said anything appreciative, or even a simple thank you. I'll ask.
I have another thought. Maybe I'm a hypocrite because I'm pushing my thoughts into thinking what SHE would like. And the thoughts I have previously before conflicts with it, causing me to say one thing, and saying another thing totally contradicting it. My previous thought, and the thought that SHE would like. The only cure: not love her. Be myself by having my own previous thoughts. And then there's another thought. I'm saying things to not make her angry. To make her feel good. And saying something contradicting affects it. I hope she tells me when I'm being hypocritical though. But do I really care about it? I feel okay afterward unless it makes US awkward. And usually it does, so therefore I care about it. Basically, I think all along I've just been trying to impress her.
I don't know what I'll be so I shouldn't predict? Wise words of uncle Rich:
"We all have a choice, but we cannot choose the consequences of our choice.....so choose wisely"
Lets make it really basic, in the big picture, without any whys:
-I want people to like me
-I want to be BETTER than the guys I don't like
-I want to get married to her
And WITH whys, I start doubting myself.
Oh shit fuck this shit, I'm vacuuming the house.
And dammit I should finish my thoughts but It'll take forever. Fuck fuck fuck, no wonder I fail. But that's assuming that's the reason. Shit, she's making me do shit that I shouldn't even think of.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
wow seriously?!?!
So here I am, being and thinking so happily, that I'm LISTENING to her, that I'm TELLING HER THE TRUTH, and that I'm doing my best, doing what she tells me to do, TALKING to her. But APPARENTLY, I'm NOT. What. The. Fuck. Seriously. WHAT THE HELL?!??!
What the hell, we just became friends again and she's criticizing me for every little thing that I did. She gets mad at every little thing that I did. And she's still mad about it and gets mad at me later on for it. What the hell, she's making me feel REALLY bad, and now I'm REALLY irritated and annoyed. I don't like her, and I don't like where this is heading.
She's flat out lying, and she doesn't know it yet she's telling me all these little things that I don't remember, and if I did remember it, she's remembering it wrong. There wasn't one time when she said that I was annoying her. She says I'm not listening, but I DO. Maybe it's just the way I am that she's annoyed about, and I shouldn't assume, but I'm doing that anyways because THAT'S WHO I AM. I'm shy. I get paranoid. Of course shy people would think like that, and I'm not doing it to irritate her, it's just my way of thinking, and its just my response, so I hope she lets it go. I can't help but think like that.
But I guess I have to work on it.
And then I think again.. for what? It's for her. She's my friend. But all she does is annoy me, ESPECIALLY right now, and it's getting on my nerves. I want to keep what I said about how I like her and how I want to continue being friends but is it that important? At this moment, I hope she just says "I NEVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN." And then I'll get it, and I can finally let go and go away for good. Seriously, I hate how she's talking about it, and it's making me even MORE UNCOMFORTABLE that she's talking about me to her friend.
Ugh. I am so annoyed.
Falling for her, and committing myself to her are some of the worst mistakes I made in life. At this moment.
So what should I do? Stop talking to her. Talk to my friends that make me feel better. Talk to my friends that respect me. But that will not make me a better person. I have to resolve the issues with her. AND after that, I can leave her.
What the hell, we just became friends again and she's criticizing me for every little thing that I did. She gets mad at every little thing that I did. And she's still mad about it and gets mad at me later on for it. What the hell, she's making me feel REALLY bad, and now I'm REALLY irritated and annoyed. I don't like her, and I don't like where this is heading.
She's flat out lying, and she doesn't know it yet she's telling me all these little things that I don't remember, and if I did remember it, she's remembering it wrong. There wasn't one time when she said that I was annoying her. She says I'm not listening, but I DO. Maybe it's just the way I am that she's annoyed about, and I shouldn't assume, but I'm doing that anyways because THAT'S WHO I AM. I'm shy. I get paranoid. Of course shy people would think like that, and I'm not doing it to irritate her, it's just my way of thinking, and its just my response, so I hope she lets it go. I can't help but think like that.
But I guess I have to work on it.
And then I think again.. for what? It's for her. She's my friend. But all she does is annoy me, ESPECIALLY right now, and it's getting on my nerves. I want to keep what I said about how I like her and how I want to continue being friends but is it that important? At this moment, I hope she just says "I NEVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN." And then I'll get it, and I can finally let go and go away for good. Seriously, I hate how she's talking about it, and it's making me even MORE UNCOMFORTABLE that she's talking about me to her friend.
Ugh. I am so annoyed.
Falling for her, and committing myself to her are some of the worst mistakes I made in life. At this moment.
So what should I do? Stop talking to her. Talk to my friends that make me feel better. Talk to my friends that respect me. But that will not make me a better person. I have to resolve the issues with her. AND after that, I can leave her.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
omgggggggg
I sent it, lost patience, and omg we're friends again. I'M SO HAPPY. BACK TO THE SAME OLD days where I cry coz she doesn't like me back LOL
Move on: It'll be hard, I'll be emo.
Not move on: I love loving her, something to look forward to, growth.
I should tell myself that if I go emo again over this, its all my fault because its my choice.
Move on: It'll be hard, I'll be emo.
Not move on: I love loving her, something to look forward to, growth.
I should tell myself that if I go emo again over this, its all my fault because its my choice.
Monday, January 18, 2010
conclusion.
I decided not to send it.
What would it do? It will either cause her to talk to me or make her more angry at me. But then, she could probably take the constructive criticism and not do it again. I know she's smarter than that though, and it probably has something to do with me. Too bad I'll never find out.
This relationship is over. I have to focus on my studies now, and care about people who actually care about me.
What would it do? It will either cause her to talk to me or make her more angry at me. But then, she could probably take the constructive criticism and not do it again. I know she's smarter than that though, and it probably has something to do with me. Too bad I'll never find out.
This relationship is over. I have to focus on my studies now, and care about people who actually care about me.
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