Going to gradually expose myself, and then tell them.

I can't seem to get over it, they are really good friends, so I'm going to... tell them who I am.  Gradually though, so it won't be a big surprise.  I'll throw hints out there, saying jokes that I would usually say, saying things that I usually do, and I'll make sure my best friend is with me while I tell them, because I feel like I'm lagging behind the group, and I'm becoming an outcast within them.  This is also hurting my academic life.  However, they MUST keep it a secret from the others.  When I expose myself, I'll never be "that" again to avoid any other awkward confrontations. I don't like being alone like this.  And maybe it will continue even faster, how can I be trusted anymore after all this anyway?  I can't keep it up.  I did not know I'd make such great friends, I just wanted to have fun in team or CTF but this is getting ridiculous.