Yup, going out sucks.  I'm never going out ever again. 

Also... I don't know if I liked Octopath Traveler II.  All the bosses, the antagonists... they are all kinda the same.  The same ol "HAHAHAHAAHAHA" villain.  It is so disappointing.

I Think...

 I'm totally done with Video Games.  I was playing Octopath Traveler 2 and just having a terrible time with it.  Falling asleep during cutscenes, just being unprepared for combat and losing, wasting time, feeling like it's all a waste of time.  I really enjoyed the first one.  I almost 100%'ed it but didn't even bother with the final hidden boss because I was told it takes like eight hours... time is more precious these days... so I hate it, I feel horrible playing it.  Especially when I lose and get a Game Over. Like this morning.

I think I wanted to like it because there was a Nurse character, and I have fond memories of using "Scrutinize" and the Nurse character does do just that..

Then there's Trails in the Sky the 1st.  I think I just suck at it, and I don't want to get any better in it.  Not enjoying any of these JRPGs and it is making me sad... like, what do I do now?

MY 2025 GAME OF THE YEAR

 ... Is Pokemon Legends ZA!!!

I had the most fun with it.  

It modernized this little concept of avoiding other trainers:

Well, bad example, but I couldn't find a gif or the drive to make my own gif.  And the DLC too, it just feels so wholesome with the little Donuts and stuff.  The donut making part of it is annoying though and it can be stressful... but for the most part, I like it a lot.  After finishing X and Y I always wanted a Z and this is the Z I was waiting for.

Uh...

 Nope! I don't think so. 

 I don't know if I should write about it..

If I did, I would feel like I would want someone to read it...

and I'll be disappointed because I know I can't find anyone who would want to read it. 

 I woke up thinking about killing myself again, then I day dreamed about it. 

 

This guy is also 35... in his latest appearance anyawy. 

One Week Until Six Years

 I think the most disappointing thing about this whole experience was that it did not teach me anything new... it was all something I already knew...

I could think that it just reinforces what I already know

... but I really did not want that to happen.