If Xenoblade has an official release date, I'm getting a Wii. I'll get the game first though, and then the Wii. Xenoblade looks like the only RPG that I want to play ATM. Sarah Àlainn's Beyond the Sky is so beautifully sung ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iPQP7aDe_Y )... and I'm following Soraya Saga on Twitter lol (worked on Xenosaga and Xenoblade). And I should also get Baten Kaitos if I get a Wii...! (if the Wii can play Gamecube games...)
http://www.nintendo.co.jp/wii/sx4j/characters/index.html
These character designs look amazing.
I also discovered Sarah Àlainn's youtube ch and blog... I wonder how old she is so I can compare ourselves intellectually and where we're at in life lol... hope she's older than 25 or so, but she looks 21 or 22, sigh.
I think my shooting got better... when I practice, I must practice going up one on one against someone. Shoot open shots, pass when I don't or dribble ahead... I'm short, so I have to practice being like a point guard. Ray Allen and Paul Pierce do not miss any shots during practice. I must not miss any shots either!
I'm procrastinating again on my government essay as usual. I could never think of a thesis. This is why I hate essays. I don't like thinking up topics and researching, it just doesn't interest me and I lost credibility on everything anyways. AND I don't have much opinions on issues and such. Maybe I need to live by myself or something to form opinions that I'd be satisfied with... oh well, must write something though for 20+ points? I might not like my argument, but at least I'll follow the structure. My heart isn't in this, because I am not passionate about any issue.
I think I'll finish FFVIII ASAP, and right after, finishing up FFXII. I started FFX like two weeks ago if I didn't say that, and I'm not hooked. Maybe it's because I'm not that far into it, so past game series are drawing me in.
Last weekend I kept replaying and watching the endings of Xenosaga EPI and III. Is it bad that my favorite character is Wilhelm? The guy who watches the universe revolve around him, precisely calculating what's going to happen and what's going to end up as... except the sadist part, I don't like that characteristic about him, but his outlook is so amazing. chaos and Wilhelm, staying calm and when things aren't going there way, they don't respond with an over exaggerated reaction. chaos's eternal melancholic expression is intriguing as well, I wish more games have as good as a story and development as Xenosaga, which is why I'm looking forward to Xenoblade. I could tell that it's genuine, and the creator really crafted it with a passion. That's just by looking at reviews and trailers and screen shots and the website though. It's Takahashi, of course.
Jin Uzuki... the moment before he dies in the ending, he longs for the past, and never felt that way before. He wanted to go back. I wonder if that meant that he regret sacrificing himself to help Nephilim, Abel, chaos, and KOS-MOS. I feel the same way, even though I'm not going to die right now. I'm longing for the past. I didn't say spoilers, because that's not the true ending. Soraya Saga and Takahashi's ending is much different... I'm really curious to what their ending for the series is.
This is why I'm excited for Xenoblade. It's Takahashi's first, for us, our first time to see a game his team actually finished w/o bein rushed.
Sigh, I want to play games... back to my essay. And wish me luck! If things go well, and somehow I get a chance to talk to her, I'll go up to her with my friend and start something... sad to say that I'm superficial and she's looking good lol love her hair and the way she dresses. She says "excuse me" "thank you", helped out in the concert, nice hair, hard worker, not afraid to ask for something she doesn't know... yeeee. I guess it's not that much based solely on her appearance :P
Monday, October 18, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
good mood.
I beat Adel! Finally... she had na-na-na-nothing on Selphie baby.
Shell on Rinoa. Regen on Rinoa. Auto-haste + 40% speed on Squall, normal attacking. Selphie + Cactuar + Recover. Zell + Curaga + Revive. It took me 30 minutes, four tries.
I think my stamina increased drastically. But it may be because of night, that I did not tire out easily.
Doing "basketball circles" really helps with the rhythm pertaining to free throw shots.
I like sleeping, I feel healthy.
And I feel like reading Prince of Tennis and watching The Girl Who Leap Through Time.
I also had another idea in my story thingie... where Deske cuts off his arm to prove that he doesn't care about himself, but it just shows he does anyway, because of what the bad guy says. And it's starting to feel a lot like Xenosaga, so I should back down a bit on the Gods and whutnot.
Received Mew, 10:07 AM, October 15, 2010.
I want to be confident as a pessimist and cynic, but cheerful and not contradictory at the same time. Au contraire... I just felt like saying au contraire.
"For love? Ridiculous. That has no value." -Wilhelm, Xenosaga EP. III
Yeay had a brain fart. Idea of a story would be... God's creation of the "love" concept was actually a mutation in the universal chain of time. BUAHAHA. And she comes down to destroy and erase the concept off existence. LOl and so our midget heroes will try to protect "love," by rebelling against God. I wonder if that has been done before...
And before the crisis happens, Deske falls in love with God, who is Leena, a human incarnation of God. She chose being human, because they seemed to be the most interesting species, and are different than the other "animals". She is also a whore, but a silent pianist and musician and whatever.... she plays strange tunes, which aren't rhythmatically connected at all, but for some strange reason, it flows well and Deske thinks that he understands her. And Deske falls in love with her so much! And there will be also other story arcs. Love triangles, science, with attacking microorganisms, the "big bacteria" that battles God... this is designed to be epic.
Oh yeah, and God doesn't wear makeup, but looks so naturally cute and intelligent, so Deske immediately falls for her, and is also the reason why he doesn't have much of a competition is that God is the quiet type that sits in a piano room all day playing the piano... or should it be organ.
Why do I feel that this story has been done before? =_= I hope not! omfg i feel like being awake and motivated. My part time story begins! wraahhhH
Shell on Rinoa. Regen on Rinoa. Auto-haste + 40% speed on Squall, normal attacking. Selphie + Cactuar + Recover. Zell + Curaga + Revive. It took me 30 minutes, four tries.
I think my stamina increased drastically. But it may be because of night, that I did not tire out easily.
Doing "basketball circles" really helps with the rhythm pertaining to free throw shots.
I like sleeping, I feel healthy.
And I feel like reading Prince of Tennis and watching The Girl Who Leap Through Time.
I also had another idea in my story thingie... where Deske cuts off his arm to prove that he doesn't care about himself, but it just shows he does anyway, because of what the bad guy says. And it's starting to feel a lot like Xenosaga, so I should back down a bit on the Gods and whutnot.
Received Mew, 10:07 AM, October 15, 2010.
I want to be confident as a pessimist and cynic, but cheerful and not contradictory at the same time. Au contraire... I just felt like saying au contraire.
"For love? Ridiculous. That has no value." -Wilhelm, Xenosaga EP. III
Yeay had a brain fart. Idea of a story would be... God's creation of the "love" concept was actually a mutation in the universal chain of time. BUAHAHA. And she comes down to destroy and erase the concept off existence. LOl and so our midget heroes will try to protect "love," by rebelling against God. I wonder if that has been done before...
And before the crisis happens, Deske falls in love with God, who is Leena, a human incarnation of God. She chose being human, because they seemed to be the most interesting species, and are different than the other "animals". She is also a whore, but a silent pianist and musician and whatever.... she plays strange tunes, which aren't rhythmatically connected at all, but for some strange reason, it flows well and Deske thinks that he understands her. And Deske falls in love with her so much! And there will be also other story arcs. Love triangles, science, with attacking microorganisms, the "big bacteria" that battles God... this is designed to be epic.
Oh yeah, and God doesn't wear makeup, but looks so naturally cute and intelligent, so Deske immediately falls for her, and is also the reason why he doesn't have much of a competition is that God is the quiet type that sits in a piano room all day playing the piano... or should it be organ.
Why do I feel that this story has been done before? =_= I hope not! omfg i feel like being awake and motivated. My part time story begins! wraahhhH
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
it is unfortunate.
If we don't plan on where we're going, we'll end up where we didn't plan on going.
Everyone's working hard on their goals. To make money, meet that special someone, gain some sort of status to show off to their friends. To support themselves.
Except me. I feel that my goal is to die. I only see death. No middle point, just death. Closest to death is torture. Passing a test is close to success. It's like the success in progress. Torturing oneself, is hurt, death is extreme hurt, thus it is the success after achieving consecutive 100%s on torture.
I will fail all my tests. I will destroy all my relationships. I'll build a wall over my island. I'll isolate myself. I'll make bad first impressions. I'll eliminate emotions except the feeling of melancholy.
It is unfortunate that I unconsciously care about my own well-being.
I tested our knives. The sharpest one seems to be the one with "R O G E R" engraved on the blade.
Everyone's working hard on their goals. To make money, meet that special someone, gain some sort of status to show off to their friends. To support themselves.
Except me. I feel that my goal is to die. I only see death. No middle point, just death. Closest to death is torture. Passing a test is close to success. It's like the success in progress. Torturing oneself, is hurt, death is extreme hurt, thus it is the success after achieving consecutive 100%s on torture.
I will fail all my tests. I will destroy all my relationships. I'll build a wall over my island. I'll isolate myself. I'll make bad first impressions. I'll eliminate emotions except the feeling of melancholy.
It is unfortunate that I unconsciously care about my own well-being.
I tested our knives. The sharpest one seems to be the one with "R O G E R" engraved on the blade.
daily rituals.
Wake up, and shoot some hoops.
Prepare for school.
Scales, sightread.
Then school! I shouldn't turn on my PC... well, maybe to blog if I don't feel like wasting any paper. I finally got my answer to the paper problem I've been wondering about for a long time. How can saving paper save trees when the paper is already made from the tree? With paper consumed as it is now, the supply for paper will remain constant, thus halting the rapid production of an excess of paper. Not using paper will keep the supply relatively high, thus companies will not make as much, as it won't be as cost efficient for them to spend money only to have extra paper. Therefore trees will be saved by its low demand.
So let's save paper! And use our carbon emitting PCs to do our dirty work. It's better than trees being cut down to release so much though. Hm, but one blog page handwritten is like 1/100000 of a tree. I wonder what the carbon emitting proportions would be for each typed thing to be handwritten compared to how long the PC releasing carbon to type the thing.
Way to get off topic again.
And Tiana Xiao's intelligence is so sexy.
I swear I have ADHD. It's not my surroundings though, it's my own friggin head, so at least I have a slight resistance to solitary confinement!
I keep getting mad and frustrated at home.
But at least I keep silent. I don’t know, do I need more calcium? Do I need friends? What’s missing… sure not everyone will not piss me off, but this is just crazy. I get mad at the smallest things, and I don’t want to get mad at the smallest things. I want to be calm with that neutral expression all the time. Sigh. What do I have to train myself to do to have no emotions? Watch shows that kill people over and over? Then what if I turn into a killer? I look calm, but I am not calm.
My Professor in Critical Thinking answered my question! It was the one about what he thinks about the quote; “Ignorance is bliss” , which is actually from “Where ignorance is bliss, ‘Tis folly to be wise.” I did not get everything he said down, though I did capture something about hiding from the truth when you know it’s there. He asked rhetorically “only in fantasy can make you happy?” No matter how much we hide from it, it’s there when you know it. I like how he connected it to individual humans rather than the world tied up together. There was much more that he said about it… I’ll ask him about cynical people next time the class has an opportunity to ask a question in the 1 minute papers.
Prepare for school.
Scales, sightread.
Then school! I shouldn't turn on my PC... well, maybe to blog if I don't feel like wasting any paper. I finally got my answer to the paper problem I've been wondering about for a long time. How can saving paper save trees when the paper is already made from the tree? With paper consumed as it is now, the supply for paper will remain constant, thus halting the rapid production of an excess of paper. Not using paper will keep the supply relatively high, thus companies will not make as much, as it won't be as cost efficient for them to spend money only to have extra paper. Therefore trees will be saved by its low demand.
So let's save paper! And use our carbon emitting PCs to do our dirty work. It's better than trees being cut down to release so much though. Hm, but one blog page handwritten is like 1/100000 of a tree. I wonder what the carbon emitting proportions would be for each typed thing to be handwritten compared to how long the PC releasing carbon to type the thing.
Way to get off topic again.
And Tiana Xiao's intelligence is so sexy.
I swear I have ADHD. It's not my surroundings though, it's my own friggin head, so at least I have a slight resistance to solitary confinement!
I keep getting mad and frustrated at home.
But at least I keep silent. I don’t know, do I need more calcium? Do I need friends? What’s missing… sure not everyone will not piss me off, but this is just crazy. I get mad at the smallest things, and I don’t want to get mad at the smallest things. I want to be calm with that neutral expression all the time. Sigh. What do I have to train myself to do to have no emotions? Watch shows that kill people over and over? Then what if I turn into a killer? I look calm, but I am not calm.
My Professor in Critical Thinking answered my question! It was the one about what he thinks about the quote; “Ignorance is bliss” , which is actually from “Where ignorance is bliss, ‘Tis folly to be wise.” I did not get everything he said down, though I did capture something about hiding from the truth when you know it’s there. He asked rhetorically “only in fantasy can make you happy?” No matter how much we hide from it, it’s there when you know it. I like how he connected it to individual humans rather than the world tied up together. There was much more that he said about it… I’ll ask him about cynical people next time the class has an opportunity to ask a question in the 1 minute papers.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
bad day. maybe tomorrow.
My piano teacher said that I'm a waste of existence because I'm not doing sight reading properly... in front of that one girl.
And we turned back from Downer because I felt like I would be a stranger with no college ID.
Bad day.
But playing basketball made it all better. I feel like I'm good at something when I swish all my shots. My shooting accuracy isn't 100% though, it's like 60-70%. 80% if I concentrate probably.
I shall add a reminder that Mew is available through Pokemon.com this Friday.
And I'm typing another sentence here so I won't skip the bold.
The days not over yet, I have a lot of work to do.
Why do I have to be so sensitive? =_=
At least I don't show it lol
Cheerio.
And we turned back from Downer because I felt like I would be a stranger with no college ID.
Bad day.
But playing basketball made it all better. I feel like I'm good at something when I swish all my shots. My shooting accuracy isn't 100% though, it's like 60-70%. 80% if I concentrate probably.
I shall add a reminder that Mew is available through Pokemon.com this Friday.
And I'm typing another sentence here so I won't skip the bold.
The days not over yet, I have a lot of work to do.
Why do I have to be so sensitive? =_=
At least I don't show it lol
Cheerio.
Monday, October 11, 2010
i gots a keyboard...
In my room! Lightly nifty. Picture soon, after my camera is finished chargin! R-Blade!
It's right next to my PC so I can practice my scales and SR while I wait until my PC finishes it's favorite activity; lagging, which is fairly often. And I like it!
Anyways, I don't want the hero to be cynical anymore. There will be a cynical character, but he won't be the main. I guess it'll be more like an FFVI with no mains, or a switch in the middle of the story... like a Terra to Celes. Or a switch in between like a Squall and Laguna. Or Felt and Vesse. Whatever! I'm falling in love with my character creations though lol, I don't want them to die.
If my ear gets any worse, I'm blaming it on Dr. Johnson.
Going to head down to Downer tomorrow... hope I get the job! And I hope I'll be a good group leader. Just gotta talk loud, coz I'm in charge this time!
Oh, and I perfected my Critical Thinking quiz. I REALLY thought I'd miss one, because I wrote "a premise" but afterwords I knew it should have been "a premise or more". WHEW. Why am I so satisfied with getting a good grade? I guess it's the same as someone judging me, like getting a "you're cool!". g'awww thank you! But no thanks, coz even though praise may feel good, I'll only grow with critical disagreement responses, so BRING IT ON!!! But it's done, and I got a perfect score. Must. Fight this selfishness of getting a good score, because why should I be happy when there are children in Africa being starved at this very moment... child abuse in a corner in Richmond, depressed children... neglected children... GRAAAH. It sucks because I can do something about this, and hopefully I won't make it worse.
And Professor Ampim said that the best way to prevent a divorce is to not get married lol. I think at his level, Dr. Dang, Ledbetter, Barnes, OMG so many great professors... they are the ideal teachers to be. I am glad I am or took their class to experience their godliness.
Excuse my optimism. I must gradually make my mood transition to elementary school teacher, excited for learning... how I think this optimism acting is best suited for the job.
It's right next to my PC so I can practice my scales and SR while I wait until my PC finishes it's favorite activity; lagging, which is fairly often. And I like it!
Anyways, I don't want the hero to be cynical anymore. There will be a cynical character, but he won't be the main. I guess it'll be more like an FFVI with no mains, or a switch in the middle of the story... like a Terra to Celes. Or a switch in between like a Squall and Laguna. Or Felt and Vesse. Whatever! I'm falling in love with my character creations though lol, I don't want them to die.
If my ear gets any worse, I'm blaming it on Dr. Johnson.
Going to head down to Downer tomorrow... hope I get the job! And I hope I'll be a good group leader. Just gotta talk loud, coz I'm in charge this time!
Oh, and I perfected my Critical Thinking quiz. I REALLY thought I'd miss one, because I wrote "a premise" but afterwords I knew it should have been "a premise or more". WHEW. Why am I so satisfied with getting a good grade? I guess it's the same as someone judging me, like getting a "you're cool!". g'awww thank you! But no thanks, coz even though praise may feel good, I'll only grow with critical disagreement responses, so BRING IT ON!!! But it's done, and I got a perfect score. Must. Fight this selfishness of getting a good score, because why should I be happy when there are children in Africa being starved at this very moment... child abuse in a corner in Richmond, depressed children... neglected children... GRAAAH. It sucks because I can do something about this, and hopefully I won't make it worse.
And Professor Ampim said that the best way to prevent a divorce is to not get married lol. I think at his level, Dr. Dang, Ledbetter, Barnes, OMG so many great professors... they are the ideal teachers to be. I am glad I am or took their class to experience their godliness.
Excuse my optimism. I must gradually make my mood transition to elementary school teacher, excited for learning... how I think this optimism acting is best suited for the job.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
jrpgs.
rpgs finished: Final Fantasy, Final Fantasy II, Final Fantasy IV, Final Fantasy VI, Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy IX, Chrono Trigger, Chrono Cross, Super Mario RPG, Paper Mario, Legend of Mana, Sword of Mana, Golden Sun, Golden Sun The Lost Age, Kingdom Hearts, Kingdom Hearts II, Atelier Iris Eternal Mana, Atelier Iris 2 Azoth of Destiny, Atelier Iris 3 Grand Phantasm, Mana Khemia, Mana Khemia 2, Ar Tonelico, Ar Tonelico 2, Persona 3: FES, Persona 4, Xenosaga Episode 1, Xenosaga Episode 2, Xenosaga Episode 3, La Pucelle, Pokemon Red, Pokemon Silver, Pokemon Crystal, Pokemon Sapphire, Pokemon Diamond, Pokemon Platinum, Pokemon SoulSilver, Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Red Rescue Team.
not completed, but over 50%: Dragon Quest VIII, Final Fantasy V, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy XII, Lufia 2, Grandia, The World Ends With You, Lunar: Dragon Song, Harvest Moon: Back to Nature.
own: Samurai Legend Musashi, Evolution, Evolution 2, Timestalkers, Skies of Arcadia, Grandia 2, Phantom Brave, Okage, Dragon Warrior Monsters Tara's Adventure.
started out, with only a few hours in: Star Ocean III, Final Fantasy X, Mario & Luigi Superstar Saga.
have access to: Suikoden III, Suikoden IV, Suikoden Tetris w/e, Grandia III, Grandia Xtreme, Wild Arms II, Wild Arms III, Wild Arms IV, Dark Cloud, Dark Cloud 2, Devil Summoner 2, Final Fantasy X-2, Final Fantasy Tactics, Legend of Dragoon, Brave Fencer Musashi, Disgaea, Chaos Wars, Nightmare of Druaga, Breath of Fire V, Romancing Saga, Unlimited Saga, Dragon Quest, Dragon Quest II, Dragon Quest III, Dragon Quest IV, Fire Emblem: The Sacred Stones.
want: Shadow Hearts, Digital Devil Saga, Xenogears, Parasite Eve.
not completed, but over 50%: Dragon Quest VIII, Final Fantasy V, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy XII, Lufia 2, Grandia, The World Ends With You, Lunar: Dragon Song, Harvest Moon: Back to Nature.
own: Samurai Legend Musashi, Evolution, Evolution 2, Timestalkers, Skies of Arcadia, Grandia 2, Phantom Brave, Okage, Dragon Warrior Monsters Tara's Adventure.
started out, with only a few hours in: Star Ocean III, Final Fantasy X, Mario & Luigi Superstar Saga.
have access to: Suikoden III, Suikoden IV, Suikoden Tetris w/e, Grandia III, Grandia Xtreme, Wild Arms II, Wild Arms III, Wild Arms IV, Dark Cloud, Dark Cloud 2, Devil Summoner 2, Final Fantasy X-2, Final Fantasy Tactics, Legend of Dragoon, Brave Fencer Musashi, Disgaea, Chaos Wars, Nightmare of Druaga, Breath of Fire V, Romancing Saga, Unlimited Saga, Dragon Quest, Dragon Quest II, Dragon Quest III, Dragon Quest IV, Fire Emblem: The Sacred Stones.
want: Shadow Hearts, Digital Devil Saga, Xenogears, Parasite Eve.
Friday, October 8, 2010
need to focus. and think about the future.
Obsessed with Lufia 2.
Playing FFX.
Stuck on Adel on FFVIII. I keep killing Rinoa.
Failed Exotic Ethic.
Had 2 chances, but missed them. First chance, I didn't recognize her LOL. Second, I was passed back a paper when she was passing by me and I was embarrassed of my -30 LOL.
Piano is fun.
Oklahoma VS Miami was a disappoint. Wade wasn't even playing and they still lost... but maybe it would be different if the starters played most of the time. Oh well. These rookies are unpredictable.
That is all.
Playing FFX.
Stuck on Adel on FFVIII. I keep killing Rinoa.
Failed Exotic Ethic.
Had 2 chances, but missed them. First chance, I didn't recognize her LOL. Second, I was passed back a paper when she was passing by me and I was embarrassed of my -30 LOL.
Piano is fun.
Oklahoma VS Miami was a disappoint. Wade wasn't even playing and they still lost... but maybe it would be different if the starters played most of the time. Oh well. These rookies are unpredictable.
That is all.
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