The Pursuit of Happiness

Why I like her:
Our history
She talks to me
Her background
What she does
Fun to be with
No nail polish/eye make-up
Similar personality
Cries
Her likes

How am I obsessed?
I check her status in her game
I creep on her Tumblr and her Likes
I refresh my facebook page until she's in the top nine, and I get a heartgasm when she's on the top left.
I wait for her to be online,then I feel that I can safely log out knowing she safely got home
I get jealous with guys she contacts
Some other things that I won't mention, not even to myself.  Another form of self denial?  What kind of person am I really...

Why I shouldn't:
Distance
Communication problems
Flirts with others

What cannot be determined:
Her style
Her looks
Her scent
Her breath
Her posture
Her aura
Her presence

What will bother me:
She talks to a lot of guys
Wears Make-Up
Not sure if she likes me for who I am
Doesn't listen to me, talking to her isn't very therapeutic

Signs that she won't like me/ might annoy me in the future:
Difficulty with communication
Flirts with others a lot
Criticizes her dad a lot and other people
Talks to a lot of people
On computer way too much (?)
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Why doesn't she talk to me anymore?!!?
Figured out we don't have much in common
I'm not reliable
She used to like me so she talked to me, now she doesn't like me and doesn't talk to me.

Why am I being ignored?!?!?
1. My depression is contagious
2. I'm holding her back in her goals/dreams
3. She's afraid she'd hurt my feelings because she knows I like her
4. No reason to talk to me
5. I'm not giving her support
6. Mad at me for disparaging the potential relationship with Whiteguy
7. Lost trust somehow because I appear different when I blog?
8. She's mad at something I said:
9. She thinks that whatever she says would hurt me
10. Maybe because of the girls I talk about on Tumblr (though it was just to get back, as an act of revenge at her since she has her biggie and Whiteguy)
11. She likes me but she doesn't want to
12. She doesn't know what to say
13. A combination of above
14. She found my blog
15. I'm hella ugly
16. I don't talk to her about my own problems so she probably thinks why should she talk about her?