at school.

This is the first time I've ever used the computer at school by myself in college.  I never even touched a computer at my junior college.  Actually, I have, but it was an in class thing.  This is the first time I'm using it on my own.

Anyways I need to let out some steam.  Some lady cut me off at the shuttle bus when I was going out, WTF that bitch, I hope she dies.  Trips from the stairs, falls down, gets wet from the rain, and dies a wet death.  The rain will fuse with her blood making the sea around her red.  No I'm kidding, but at that moment I felt like that. Bitch.

Yesterday I was thinking of some things that are kept privately in my Molecular and Cell Biology notebook.  My story about the Big bounce, and how I'm finding comfort in it.  And starting to believe in fate.  There are just things that are out of my control and I'm probably in control unconsciously.  It's like like any of us are destined by the gods to do something, but I think we are destined to do whatever that's in our hearts, but then again, this destiny could be some corporate mind control that I am unaware of.  That's all.

Actually, no, I'm getting sorta lost in my classes.  I'm behind one problem in math, and far behind in Genetics.  I should be reviewing instead of posting on this blog, but then again I initially came here to let off some steam.  That bus bitch!

Fuck I was in the BART in a good mood too listening to all my new music on my mp3 player, but I started my day out bad kind of because I woke up late.  I didn't get a chance to skim through today's chapter, but then again I believe we are behind schedule so I should be fine I think. We didn't even talk about what I've read the first day, which made me lose credibility on the syllabus.  But then again, I should learn everything even though its not in the lecture, right?  If I'm going to be a scientist or science fiction writer or whatever.  But then again I'm not even writing much, and I'm supposed to be writing every day.

I'm enjoying my Hip hop class.  I was so lost the second day because I was trying to get the steps down, but the next time, I decided to just move and move and not think as much which is making it more fun and I get more of a work out of it.  So, I'm going to just move from now on instead of thinking of the steps a much.

I'm hoping this new enjoyment won't become another competition where I'd feel that I have to be better than everyone... sigh.

Anyways, that BUS BITCH.  This is why I like being alone, and I'll probably be alone all my life.  I'm SO sensitive, and its my genetics... it'll take so much work for me to not be so sensitive.  I also need a foundation support of friends which I can't even get. Sigh so much shit on my mind, I better focus on my lecture coming up in 20 minutes before I get a headache.

The basketball courts aren't ready yet.  This school sucks, seriously, without the RaW center.