future chess.

I thought of a correlation.  Ever since I've been playing chess fast, as in, making a move without thinking too forward, I've been making hasty decisions in general, outside of chess. That was in... 8th grade, I think.  Or 7th.  So now, I've been making these decisions, since after 7th or 8th grade.

I see myself in the future, being homeless.  I'll be napping on a couch all my life.  Or sitting somewhere, starring up at the sky.  Or, I'll sit near the creek in the park.  Like that deep ditch with that mini river surrounded by lots of trees which is across the street from my middle high school. Actually, I won't, because when the middle schoolers or high schoolers are dismissed from class, they might walk by me.  And true isolationists (thought this word would be underlined red... oh well) are far away from any being.

I despise his existence.

Those were the last words I heard her say, regarding me.  But it's okay.  You are not alone.  I do too.  I know I shouldn't have begged.  But it wouldn't feel honest if I didn't.  The honesty thing got all over my head.

Anyways this won't stop me from doing homework. I think my next paper for Gov will be about the U.S. , Aristide, and Randall Robinson.  Because I felt something pierce through my heart as I heard those words.