transparent heart.

I know she'll love me back if I meet her.  I know I'll love her so much if I meet her.  But my problem right now is getting close to her, and making her like me back without actually meeting me.  I can say I love her, people naturally love those who love them, so that's all I can do for now.  Just love her and show that I'm doing my best.

What's bothering me is the uncertainty of her relationship with the guy from Sweden.  She doesn't talk about him much, and she doesn't mention him much, but he's there.  Last time we talked about him, was that she's still with him and she's cool with him.  This was back in October, but she said that he's too shy to speak to her through video cam. I should ask her how they're relationship is improving, or when she'll visit him so my hopes won't go up too much. She also said that they don't talk much.  But probably that fuels their desire to love each other, distance does make the heart grow fonder.

Dammit, sucks how I'm in this impractical love.  I call it impractical because I haven't met her yet, though its still going with what I feel, and I think its practical to go with what you feel.  I don't know, I'll keep talking to her, I know something's going to happen between us, because I know I love her more than anyone else in the world.

My heart is transparent.  You can see parts of it, but you can't see all of it.  But it's there, and I love you so much.

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I always fell back on my looks and now its fading.  I have to reveal my inner me and be confident about it.  I'm almost 20, I'm growing up.  Time to distance myself from my family, though we'll be connected through the cord between our hearts.

The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to. Don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you. The thing about falling in love is that if you doing right, you'll never hit the ground. Life is too short to be anything but happy. So kiss slowly, love deeply and forgive quickly. Take chances and never have regrets. Forget the past but remember what it taught you.