sizzlers.

I was so full, and I keep wanting to eat more, but its bad for me.

Just like love, I'm so in love, but I'm at the limit coz she wont' like me back, and I keep wanting to try to get her to like me but I can't because it's bad for me, it's bad for us (at that moment, I know she'll like me later on though lmao).

I went to a birthday party on Saturday and I had to pay for my own food, and Karaoke.  My friends didn't mind, but I thought it was weird.  I thought the birthday celebrant is supposed to pay for everything because its her that wants us to come.  Seriously, what the fuck, I'm not working and I have to pay for this shit?  If I had to pay, might as well come over to my house and karaoke. Even she lets other people pay for her, I'm happy because that's a turn off. Anywhoo it was a fun party.  I don't fancy the people, I just like hanging out with Caroline.  Alex was cool too.  I'd probably be talking to Lindsay a lot because she so shy but she has a BF so I held back.  The other people... too shallow, celebrity gossip, and blah blah blah I'm ugly blah blah, she's right, she is fishing for compliments.

In that story thing I'm doing, there will be a character that calls another character by their astrological sign, most likely he'll be calling or she'll be calling Vance, Scorpio.  She or he has no compatibility to Scorpios, but thinks Scorpios are the shit.

I also thought about having a double traitor thing.  There will be a traitor in both parties, and they'll reveal each other at the same time, at some decisive situation.  Just for a little shock kind of thing.  Conami knows all along without any hints, and he's the one that knows who the traitor in the team is, while Dodeco's bodyguard points the gun back at Dodeco.

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Something's not right.  I talked to her, I only get short responses.  It feels as if she doesn't want to deal with me.  She didn't block me though.  Maybe she's just in a bad mood?  I'll talk to her tomorrow night maybe, I know she has an exam tomorrow. She was playing Scrabble with her friend... she didn't invite me to play with them though. Eh, I shouldn't over analyze things, only girls do that! As long as I can still message her, as long as I can still message her, everything will be okay.

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I like this feeling.  Even though there was this storm, we were all together.  I felt so close to my family, and it's just so sad that the family will not get together again like they did on the burial and memorial day.  I love my family so much.  And the more I think about how much I love my family, the more I want her to be in it.  asdf x_X

I keep re watching old family videos.  I love my family.