xanga.

Going to blog full time in Xanga.  This place is so lonely... I hear my own echoes and I don't like it. http://jieison.xanga.com/

Edit: She spoke to me directly for the first time since early December.  It made me so happy. She seemed happy too, so I'm more than so happy.  I'm satisfied right now.  I'm not sure if she really is though but it just seems all good. It feels all good. I only care about myself, and I feel all good about it. I can finally leave in peace.  It's time to walk away~  Thank you for being in my life.  I'm so glad I met someone like you. I hope I won't cause any problems in the future.  I'll do my best to live life without love.

I'm being inconsiderate and selfish.

I still lie. This is torture. I can't function.


We can't be friends if I'm in love with you.

The only reason why I'm your friend is because I love you.

Such selfish reasons.  I don't deserve her.  This is how it's supposed to be, and this is the ending I'd be satisfied with.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart.  Goodbye.  I hope your life will be filled with love and joy, and your bright future will reach down to you.  I know you'll do well  <3

*deep breath* I'm on my own now.  I'll do my best. I will not cause any harm to anyone else.  It's time to focus myself on the people who love me, and learning to love them back.

Nevermind =_=