100

Quasaron reached level 100 a few days ago.

LagWithMePlz reached level 100 a few hours ago.

I love training my Wind Archer.  Too bad he's a guy archer, wished I made it a female.  I would have named her Eklair or Pepperonico if I were to rename her.  Same with my Aran, I wished Eklair was Aranawalk and aranawalk was Eklair, just because I'm playing Aranawalk more since she's higher level and she's blessed with Xeno's Blessing.

Quasaron is running low on Summoning Rocks, so it's getting slightly unmotivating.  I want to play Aranawalk but I want to change her name, but if I make it Eklair I would have to delete my Eklair on Croix's account, and I don't want to because her hair is pretty.  Eklair sounds more like an Evan actually, maybe I'll delete her and make her into an Evan.

I'll have to train Quasaron now to 110 before I can train LagWithMePlz again (LagWithMePlz is Quasaron's Junior's Junior).

My damage really sucks though. Even if I had all the items that I gave away, I wouldn't sell them anyway.  I guess I'll still level fast, just not as fast as others, especially after being through BETA leveling, as well as not training with a Bishop 99.5% of my Maple Story life.

I'll update with pictures later, because the screenshots are on my brother's PC.

I stopped leveling Xeno because some idiots in SW forum who are higher level than Xeno is (Trained with METEOR to their level), don't know anything about FP mages, saying I don't know anything about FP Mages.

Sucks how just because their status show that they are better, should not mean that what they think they know is the truth, than being compared to those who "look" like in a lower status is not true. I feel dumb because I felt annoyed.  I shouldn't feel annoyed at simple things like this... I'm getting old, and nothing should bring me down like them.  I guess I'm just lazy to put the effort into making an argument, so I'm letting it go, but it still hurts me somehow.

This is stupid.

Mechanics are coming out next week as well, I wonder if I should create it on Quasaron's account or Xeno's.  I'm leaning toward's Xeno's though because I want to receive Xeno's blessing, and I want Xeno to receive my Mechanic's blessing since I feel like I'll be active on the Mechanic.

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Things to work on in tutoring:  I keep correcting.  And I should show more appreciation and give positive feedback.

I am an INTJ

http://www.personalitypage.com/html/INTJ.html

http://typelogic.com/intj.html

Reading all this makes me wished I studied for my science classes.

This is where I took the test: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

"When under a great deal of stress, the INTJ may become obsessed with mindless repetitive, Sensate activities, such as over-drinking. They may also tend to become absorbed with minutia and details that they would not normally consider important to their overall goal."

Mindless, repetitive activities.  MAPLESTORY, RPGS, AND SHOOTING HOOPS! HARHARHARHAR.

I find this so true:

"This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness."

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Anyways, I just came back from San Diego.  I met my new cousin, Jed Angelo... I'll post some pictures when I get the motivation.

163

Reached level 163 today, and I passed both Big Bang 20 and 30!  For the first tries too... Big Bang 20 for 25M and Big Bang 30 for 10M.  I bought 2 Big Bang 30s for 10M each thinking one would fail.

Staying at Qualm Guardians even though there are remnants that signify a hacker has been in the map 50% of the time.  It's weird because the loot is all in a column on each of the 3 rows (excluding the top left on the map).

162

My FP Mage reached level 162!

Wonder why it says my ranking went down though... whatever!

I want to get to 170 and maybe I'll stop leveling for good, but for now, whenever I play I'll be leveling.

CBEST test on the 22nd.

not this again.

I had a surge of thoughts the last past hour, and I may have lost them all.

Is that heartbreak after depression supposed to last a year?  Was I just that much in "that love"?  Or is it both?  Why is it coming back?  How "in love" were divorced couples before they split?

What will happen if Mr. Grim Reaper takes her... I'm guessing since it's a what if, I'm meant to hold on, yet when it happens, it'll be within true logic, which makes it a reality, enabling the lover to move on.

I'll keep my word.  My new years resolution are these follows:  Avoid caffeine and sugar, and keep my word.

But does it take to not keep my word to become a "success"?  America did it.  They broke every treaty- they broke what they said on paper. That's worse than orally.

Stand up for what you believe in. I think if I do that, I'll be at a peace of heart.  Much better than "success...

If I think it long term... mistakes will repeat.  I will not be getting anywhere. I'll be addicted to MS again.  So it's for the best.  Get my mind off it.  Yup. Dammit.  Can't.

merry christmas eve.

Well that "heartbreak" was ephemeral.

So many people are moving up, and I STILL remain stuck on level 1: Identity.

It looks like the only path I can take now, is to become an education major.  C'mon I can do this.  Don't be intimidated by what others say, and what others have.  Think for only myself.  I know I have to do something, and this is it.  WRAH.  I have to register for this test.  Get my priorities straight. Don't think of pass faults.  Think of how manly I am.  Think of my big strong voice.  Concentrate on what I have to say, and don't make it automatic.

Why am I playing Maple again?  lol.  I guess it's fun, and I can be social!  I just have to mirror what I do there IRL.

I'm thinking of taking a drama class... maybe that wi'll loosen me up. My first said it did for her, perhaps it'll work for me.

I'm getting my first step done really well.  I'm healthy, but I know I can be healthier.

Boo for one in a millionth time, I'm pumped up for life, but it's so late (friggin 4 a.m!).

oh yeah.

i knew something was missing:  i didn't cry lol

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can't get depressed now... it took so long for me to lift up... I'm not even completely over being depressed and I'm beginning to fall apart again. more than i was before.

maybe i'm asking for attention.

maybe I need someone.

but whatever it is, i think this means I'm not ready for any relationship if i become like this.

how many more heartbreaks do i need to finally get it?