not this again.

I had a surge of thoughts the last past hour, and I may have lost them all.

Is that heartbreak after depression supposed to last a year?  Was I just that much in "that love"?  Or is it both?  Why is it coming back?  How "in love" were divorced couples before they split?

What will happen if Mr. Grim Reaper takes her... I'm guessing since it's a what if, I'm meant to hold on, yet when it happens, it'll be within true logic, which makes it a reality, enabling the lover to move on.

I'll keep my word.  My new years resolution are these follows:  Avoid caffeine and sugar, and keep my word.

But does it take to not keep my word to become a "success"?  America did it.  They broke every treaty- they broke what they said on paper. That's worse than orally.

Stand up for what you believe in. I think if I do that, I'll be at a peace of heart.  Much better than "success...

If I think it long term... mistakes will repeat.  I will not be getting anywhere. I'll be addicted to MS again.  So it's for the best.  Get my mind off it.  Yup. Dammit.  Can't.