I bet you’re talking to your new friend now, whoever it is, saying “wtf, why is this guy still talking to me”. But whatever, this is just for me, and I only care about myself. It was hard, thinking that was on my mind when I always tried to talk to you, but I really do feel the need to do so. I mustered up the courage to contact you somehow despite being afraid of that kind of social judgment especially of someone who I like so much.
I guess I’m writing a letter. The poem felt too casual and so not funny even though it was supposed to be funny. You can ask for it if you want to read it I guess… anyways, it was a long process for me, but I felt the need to talk to you somehow, but the moment never felt right, and I don’t think it ever will. I wanted to clear my head before I write something really really dumb, and I was just waiting for the right mood. Both never came. So I guess this type of head and mood is okay. I’m not too mad, sad, or happy… just wondering what happened. Maybe that’s actually the right mood.
Everything just feels really different. It’s obvious that something has happened. Is it because my depressed aura is getting to you, and it makes you sad? Is it because you want to reject me but afraid to hurt me? Is it because I’m too weird? Is it because I’m so ugly? Whatever it is, I hope I hear from you.
As time goes on, I feel the distance between us increasing every day, and I feel that eventually it’ll all pass through a solid membrane and could never recover the way it’s used to ever again. I’m afraid my feelings towards this friendship will dissipate and be replaced. I understand that feelings change, you moved on from your previous friendships as well, and I guess I helped you moved on. Though, it still was your decision to let it go… I don’t know, but I hope you don’t lose your confidence in friendships like this.
Well, if its tl;dr, I just miss you and I want to hear from you. Please respond. If you don’t, I’ll never bother you again. Maybe I’ll try a second time. But that’s my limit. I have pride too, I have a little self-respect that I don’t treat very well, and that is to avoid being clingy. Anyways, that’s all. I want to hear from you, and I miss you. That’s all. Thank you for saving me, thank you for being excited to talk to me, thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. Those four months made me happiness I’ve never felt in so long. I miss it all very much.
I guess I’m writing a letter. The poem felt too casual and so not funny even though it was supposed to be funny. You can ask for it if you want to read it I guess… anyways, it was a long process for me, but I felt the need to talk to you somehow, but the moment never felt right, and I don’t think it ever will. I wanted to clear my head before I write something really really dumb, and I was just waiting for the right mood. Both never came. So I guess this type of head and mood is okay. I’m not too mad, sad, or happy… just wondering what happened. Maybe that’s actually the right mood.
Everything just feels really different. It’s obvious that something has happened. Is it because my depressed aura is getting to you, and it makes you sad? Is it because you want to reject me but afraid to hurt me? Is it because I’m too weird? Is it because I’m so ugly? Whatever it is, I hope I hear from you.
As time goes on, I feel the distance between us increasing every day, and I feel that eventually it’ll all pass through a solid membrane and could never recover the way it’s used to ever again. I’m afraid my feelings towards this friendship will dissipate and be replaced. I understand that feelings change, you moved on from your previous friendships as well, and I guess I helped you moved on. Though, it still was your decision to let it go… I don’t know, but I hope you don’t lose your confidence in friendships like this.
Well, if its tl;dr, I just miss you and I want to hear from you. Please respond. If you don’t, I’ll never bother you again. Maybe I’ll try a second time. But that’s my limit. I have pride too, I have a little self-respect that I don’t treat very well, and that is to avoid being clingy. Anyways, that’s all. I want to hear from you, and I miss you. That’s all. Thank you for saving me, thank you for being excited to talk to me, thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. Those four months made me happiness I’ve never felt in so long. I miss it all very much.
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