Letter to Ms. Headington

I feel like writing to my high school freshman English/ Teacher Cadet teacher.  I'll hand-write it later, and deliver it to my high school's office on Tuesday.

Dear Ms. Headington

I know you're busy all the time but I feel that I have to talk to you.  I hope you remember me.  I'm ***** Morales, I graduated 2008.  I was a freshman in your English class 2nd period, and a Teacher Cadet 2006-2007 3rd period, and a Teacher Cadet once again 2007-2008, 4th and 6th period.

It's been awhile, and I know I haven't visited you since the day before graduation.  I'm still attending school, I'm at CSU East Bay, and I have switched my major three times.  Even though we were close in high school, we didn't talk much, but I've felt that I've known you, so I want to talk to you (or rant), and I feel that I can communicate best through a letter, so here it is.

Well, I want to say the main reason that I haven't visit was that I was ashamed and embarrassed that I chose Nursing over Teaching, and I wanted to visit you with a Liberal Studies degree focusing on Elementary Teaching, however, I've given up.  I feel so discouraged that I feel everyone at the major (my classmates) has a job and experience with teaching, and can handle large class sizes.  I'm more of a one on one type of person.  I realized this through how I can connect to students I've worked with at Reading Partners (I volunteered at this Reading Partners program at this elementary school for a year, where I teach reading to students one on one)

So the competition is overwhelming me and I've already given up.  Perhaps I'll try again in the future. I'm deciding to major in Biology hoping that I can get into the Clinical Laboratory Scientist program at SFSU, and I'd be even more isolated, since that's what my relatives are supporting me to do since I seem like that type of person.

Character-wise, I think I'm okay, and I'm still the same person.  I've become more of a social recluse since high school, though I feel that I'm finally breaking out of it little by little.  I don't think it's a bad thing, but other people do.  I think I've fallen in love 2010, but I've said some things, and it ultimately ended with her saying she despises my existence, even though I've been trying to mend it for a year though the entire year it was rocky and I've given up on it.  I've learn a lot through that experience.  I'm not sad or anything, but I feel like I'll grow more if I just communicate to others, and this is a start.

If you're reading this, that means you've read what I had to say and you reached the end of the letter (if you read like normal people do from top to bottom, beginning to end... you Master at English people probably read some special other way but nonetheless)... so thank you!  I hope all is well, and that you're continuing to be a great role model for everyone, and an inspiration to people like me.

Thank you so much for everything and I hope to hear from you if you're not too busy,

-*****

Edit: On second thought... maybe not. I would like to know if she read it, but I hope she wouldn't respond or anything. Sigh. I want school to start already.