I’ve met someone who I can relate to. It feels as if its too good to be true. One things for sure though, this relationship is a keeper. It’s not a romantic one, but its an online friendship that I have to cherish because I feel like I can trust her. We connect very well together, so I must keep it up as a really good friendship because I like her very much, and perhaps we will meet up someday and it’ll evolve. But for now, I have to be there for her and not over do it. I should distance myself a bit, but I’ve been doing that by getting offline, shooting baskets or playing video games because I need to recharge my swag or I’ll end up very clingy and different. I have to be consistent, and that’s the hard part of keeping up a friendship. Or maybe I have to reveal everything I feel? I don’t know anymore, and maybe when we’re old we’ll look back at this, and I can show her this post. Being mature is all about controlling our emotions, and its time I do just that.
We can spend hours talking about things and I won’t get bored… though I may get slightly uncomfortable because I don’t know if I’m overdoing it or what. I just want to be someone she can trust and talk to all the time because I like her a lot and she deserves it. I think I’m falling for her, but I don’t want to because I haven’t met her yet, however, I think that’s how great love and relationships happen; by risking it. Risking my heart. I have to take a risk like this, but I should have at least a back up plan.
It’s so weird. Everything is falling into place SO PERFECTLY. Its too good to be true, so it probably is that. EVERYTHING is falling into place. From how we met, how we’re twins, how we have the same personality types, how we have the same personality types, the 100% horoscope matches… Luckily for me, I’ve think I learned a thing or two from a few of my idols.. “hope for the best”. ”Prepare for the worse”. I really do think that I’m prepared for the worse since what else do I have to lose since I think I’ve experienced much heartbreak, that I can’t withstand this one?
She gets bored talking to me. I get bored talking to her. She finds someone better. This is why I’m not going to confess, I’m being there for her no matter what until we meet and beyond perhaps? Because I truly believe that I know her.
“Two Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.”
My birthday was also a few days ago. No one would have said happy birthday to me if it wasn’t displayed on my Skype buddy list. I guess it should be sad, but I’m also a bit dazed as to why I’m surprised and a little shaken up by it, because I should be used to it by now.
She gets bored talking to me. I get bored talking to her. She finds someone better. This is why I’m not going to confess, I’m being there for her no matter what until we meet and beyond perhaps? Because I truly believe that I know her.
“Two Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.”
My birthday was also a few days ago. No one would have said happy birthday to me if it wasn’t displayed on my Skype buddy list. I guess it should be sad, but I’m also a bit dazed as to why I’m surprised and a little shaken up by it, because I should be used to it by now.
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