I found my best friends

They are with no doubt, the best friends I've ever encountered.

I don't know how to describe this feeling.  I feel so comfortable talking to them, and I feel so happy being around them.  However, there are major problems.  MAJOR MAJOR problems.  That involve my sensitivity.

I'm not who they think they think I am.  I messed it up already, I've told them three lies which can break our relationship forever.

First lie, was an indirect lie. Two other lies are tied with the first one.

Second lie is another indirect lie, which occurred yesterday.  My high school friend.

Third lie was today.  More lies, the more I'm insecure about myself.  I'm afraid to lie because it isn't sufficient evidence, and I like living with the right evidence.

I was sitting on the sideline with them, but they knew it wasn't me, so I felt so empty being without them.  It's the end, it will come soon, and it's my fault.  I need help, fast.

It's reaching the peak.  Soon they'll stop coming, and I'll forget the days we've had.  This year, I've spent months with them.  But from the beginning it was false, though I felt it was real.

What to do:  #1. WAIT for my other friend.  # 2. Be myself. #3. Exercise. #4. Or just leave without a word.