Yup, that's going to be my nickname for her. AHHHH IM SO PATHETIC. THIS IS SO FUNNY BUT STUPID UGLY FEELINGS TAKING OVER.
So on Thursday, I had to rush to get on the BART because it arrived while I was still on the first floor. I ran up, 10:20, and as soon as I enter the BART, I noticed my umbrella was gone. My favorite Umbrella. All black, with gray masking tape on the handles. It matched my backpack, and it looked like a weapon. If I was an RPG character, that umbrella would be my main weapon. I called my mom, saying that I think I dropped it somewhere, and I did of course. Mom told me that its a dollar anyway, and that someone picked it up because it was raining. I felt so bad in the BART I didn't even really bother doing any of my readings for class. I sulked and buried my head over the backpack on my lap listening to Angel Beats! songs on full volume.
THEN I arrived at the Shuttle Stop. My perfect day was ruined because I lost my umbrella. It was one of the only days where I was early. I was second in line for the shuttle. It was raining. The guy in front of me in line didn't have an umbrella either. I put some Skrillex song on full blast. It started raining harder, and then the guy in front of me pulled out his umbrella. His ugly green and white umbrella. Time went by fast, and the shuttle came. The whole line went in. And... there were seats left. Usually it would be full at that time, but it wasn't. THIS meant that I could have left the BART, and LOOKED for it, and catch the 10:40 train. I did the same as I did in the BART.
Boom, class time. I REALLY wanted to get my mind off my umbrella. Then I started thinking, wow this is pathetic, I'm so materialistic when it comes to MY things. Then I was all like, yeah now my umbrella is with someone who needs it... or its one with the universe, and all the atoms in it will be floating around anywhere because the umbrella is destroyed and trashed and it will physically be reincarnated into something totally new... and then it hit me. I wasn't feeling shy anymore. I was talking to my seatmates. HEY WHAT'S YOUR NAME? HOW BOUT THAT JEREMY LIN? MANDARIN? YEAH I KNOW HOW THAT FRUIT LOOKS LIKE. But I wasn't talking like that nor did I asked what kind of fruit Mandarin is because it's not a fruit but a language and I've known that but every time I hear or see that word I think of an orange. BUT ANYWAY, I needed wheels for my box because it was an art class, and I was like DO YOU HAVE ANY WHEELS? LET'S GO MAKE SOME WHEELS! To new people I kinda met who sat with me for more than a month but never spoken to but I still don't know the name of. And she was like YEAH and I was like YEAH WHAT UMBRELLA because I really wasn't thinking of my umbrella when I was with these nigguhs.
Two hours later class was over, and I was like yeah good spirits, but I'm missing my umbrella... so I go in the RAW center for the first time. I was like, I'm going to do this, I'm going to work out, make use of this one hour. Going to shoot some hoops, because I can't play basketball in my backyard anymore because of those annoying dogs, new neighbors dogs keep barking at me! So I actually registered for the center, and rented a ball like my new real nigguh friend whom I met last week told me about, and I shot a bit. I noticed I have an increased accuracy if I like shoot the ball at a really high angle, so imma start doing that. ANYWAYS, when I was about to go, I see this cute girl and blahh it was time for me to go so I was like dammit oh well, so I left for my next class.
After class, after I picked up the A I received-on-my-essay-that-I did-the-morning-it-was-due, I decided to go back and shoot more hoops. AND I see her again, and we shot around at the same hoop, then we actually got a 5 on 5 game and I twisted both my legs and whatever so I guarded her LOL I felt so pathetic or whatever but it gave me more of a rest even though I was so tired. I stole the ball like three times though, from other people and her WITHOUT fouling and yeah it was a good game. And I said bye to her but I was smiling and I think she smiled too when I said bye but it may be because I was smiling and not because I'm so cool or whatever. I was so nerdy there though wearing my Batman shirt, and Cheetah shorts that are not even basketball shorts, regular cotton gray shorts.
So I get on the Shuttle back, ran up to ride the BART and felt infatuated and sick the entire way back home, not listening to music or reading but thinking up some strange thoughts like if I hadn't lost my umbrella I would have never met her! THIS IS PATHETIC because all girls have to do to me is be nice then I get all infatuated and whatever but WHATEVER. MY HEART IS LIFTED AND I FEEL FREE FROM TROUBLES.
And finally I get back to my home BART station and I asked the booth lady for my umbrella and BAM it was there, no one took it and I got my umbrella back! MWaH!
And so I ride the bus back home, feeling sick and laying down and whatever with lots of thought explosions of a mix of stupidINFATUATIONbodysotired. And when I get home I vomit and slept right away and didn't wake up four hours later, my body all numb because both my legs are sprained, and my left arm, and I had that lump in my head and the feeling to vomit any second. I couldn't even play more than two fights in Phantom Brave. So yeah that girl that looks like all my crushes combined is out of my heart, I've never said anything to her nor did she say anything to me I think, but she does look at me sometimes (but maybe because she notices that I'm looking at her LOL, we never saw eye to eye though). But anyways, finally the lust is over, and yeah, calling this new one the Umbrella girl, and I hope I see her again, so I'll be going back to that center at the same times hoping she'll be there.
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