PATHETIC.

So I seen a couple that's like going through the same thing as me, and I've have to say, that from a distance it looks so fucking pathetic.

I am addicting to her.  We aren't close, it's all my perceptions plus how she is already.  I'm predicting what she'd be like based on the truth of how I met her, which is how she really is, and I like her LOL WTF.

This is stupid.  So stupid.  She's already in a relationship, I can tell by what she says, and how she protects it, and how she cuddles it in her heart.  That guy who's with her.  Lucky bastard.  When she watches Detective Conan Openings and Endings she'd feel a lot of love and calmness in her heart, because love is such a precious thing, it'll remind you of your experience with it.

But me, it's fucking piercing, and stab stab, and then there's the emotions you felt when you were in unrequited love.  That you have to say goodbye but it was all part of a growing experience.  A BS growing experience, which is another way of LOSING, and FAILING.  It felt good for awhile, and then reality hurts.  Just like any other dreams, and what do I do?  KEEP DREAMING.

It's not over yet though.  We're good teammates when we play, and he's not part of that team.  He's a pussy for not wanting to participate in this war.  YES.  ANNND.  That's my chance, pick on those differences because we know similarities greatly enhances relationships.

BUT THEN AGAIN, THIS IS PATHETIC.  I'm in an unrequited imaginary infatuation.  LOL.