it's getting HOT.

I tend to put things off that are most important to me.  Do I have a slight personality disorder that makes me have to be in a perfect mood, perfect feeling, and perfect timing (earliest) to do something?  I don't get myself, if I have to do something, how come I don't do it?  It can't be laziness.  Am I waiting for pressure or what?  What do I need to do something I need to do?!?!

I thought of this nice quote but I can't remember it.  It has to do with my kind of thinking.

I think I have to go for her.  And what else... she never liked me, because she's not willing to understand me.  She's so sensitive, I can't believe I have to explain myself every single time. Ugh.  I wish we would just meet. That would sort things out much better.  And I guess she really doesn't care... or she's waiting to be cared for.  I think she's waiting to be cared for.  Thus, I will care for her... by showing her effort!

But I'm fuckin lazy dammit! Does this mean I don't really love her?  I guess I should cherish this time without her to sort out my mind and feelings.  Then after that, I can write the perfect letter... or not if I don't feel the need to.