RIP

It's dead.  She's not willing to help bring this friendship back up.  And I am... but it's impossible if she won't.

She wouldn't like anything I want to do.

She's still within reach, so that's a good thing.

But I can't get close anymore.  Why do I want to get close?  Because I love her.  But that's the wrong reason to get close.  What I should be doing is being her friend, and being there for her.  But how can I do that if she doesn't trust me anymore?  So first, I have to get her to trust me... how do I get her to trust me?  Do what she says, ask questions... but that will sound that I'm just trying to get close to her?  Dammit I can't think, I don't know what to say or do. If she doesn't like me, I should leave her alone.  But if I like her, what do I do? Not love her?  But she's so my type and so perfect to just walk away from.  I don't know what to do.

Hopeless.