random comments to her.

Everyone has a story, which builds up, creating sentiment and sympathy.  If we are human, we automatically love everyone's inside.  Outside is all about preference.  Who you want to be viewed as.  Therefore, outer appearance exceeds value than inside.  It's what you do to other people that makes your life valuable. Outer appearance also includes what is projected towards others. Everyone is the same. Take action.  Appear looking good, appear doing good, so you are good.  No one can see your thoughts and feel what you feel,  unless you write them down really well in a blog. So you're fat.  Your grandma says your fat, and you don't like it.  Well do something about it, just lose enough weight so your grandma can say you're not fat anymore.

You talk about your friends, and how you're trying to reconnect with them.  That's great, your talking to them.  But for what?  So that you won't be bored, so you'll have a good time, for pride, for the sake of friendship?  What will it do in the future?  Sure, you're going to have a good time.  You can ask for help in the future.  But what I really think is that you should connect with your family.  Friends are temporary.  You can ask any grownup that.  Most friends are temporary.  Look at you, you've already been distanced.  You'll be distanced again unless you do something else.  I think you're really bored.  Get up and think. Do something right.  Its just stupid to talk to old friends like that. You call some of them bitches.  What did they do?  What did you do?  I bet its just a tragic misunderstanding.  Walk safely away, that hate will consume you.  Fix your problems.  Talk it out.

Love your guardians.  Never say you hate them.  Fighting my way through my sympathy, I want to say to you, based on what you said, that I think its pathetic to hate them.  Just look at you, they take care of you, they're providing a shelter.  If you want to get out, get your own house, work hard, don't sit on your ass all day, and then end up complaining on your blog.  If you knew your mom, you would know what she'd expect from you, so get to know her. Relationships take work. Try to understand her, understand that she's going through a lot too.  She can be stupid, but just respect that.  Remember that it has to be you that takes care of this war.  Your mom is over 25, and you're under 25.  You're brain isn't locked up yet, so someone has to give in, and the someone who is closest to an opened brain is you. I know you're smart.  Know her, and give her a big hug. I was honestly surprised, I thought you were more mature than that.

Without sucking up this time, my comment.