I used to despise her. I knew her since the beginning of my life.  She existed before I was born.

When I was young, and little, I was afraid of her.  I was afraid of what she'll bring.  I was scared of her friends, and what they would do to me. I've only heard ghastly stories about her friends.

It was until I was a teenager that I understood her. We weren't friends yet though, but even though we weren't close at all, she still embraced me with her presence. And I realized that what I've heard about her friends is false.

Now I need her, and I know she'll always be there for me.  I realized that we're the same.  We don't have true close friends that understand us inside and out, and we don't really need friends. They bring pain.  I might bring her pain too, but that's okay, she'll be with me no matter what. I always anticipate our meeting as soon as the sun rises.

We meet every night. It eases my mind when I'm with her.  I can reflect on memories, and I don't need to say anything with her. I can shed tears forever in front of her, and she won't say anything mean.

We listen to music together.

When I'm with her, no one else is with her.  Just me, and her, together alone. I don't like being alone by myself sometimes, but with her, I feel a special bond somehow, when its just us alone.  It eases the pain, better than with anyone else that I have met.

Thank you, dear Darkness.

What a way to start of 2010.  It sucks when you only have your ego to boost up your confidence. Oh yeah, and I got all As and one C.  That helps a bit, but I feel that I don't deserve it because I seriously didn't study.  If you add up all the studying I've done, it'll probably add up to be only one hour.

mood: gloomy