My body is aching all over...

But I am still eating A LOT of ice cream.

I don't know if the ice cream has anything to do with it though.

Why would you live in America if you do not want to make any money?

Fuck it, gonna go nursing.

Oh fuck, I think I get it now.

I was "pushing" her when she was saying that "you know how it feels" thing.  I was like, "but what about how I feel... do you know what it's like to be in love."  AND from that she probably thought I was pushing her BUT WHAT I REALLY WANTED was a proper rejection like what everyone else gets.

But I did not say that.  I am forgetting all the important stuff, thinking she knows how I think.  She does not know how I think at all.  Fuck.  Damn it.  Now I need to tell her this.

DAMNIT. THIS IS WHY WE NEED TO TALK FACE TO FACE.  OR IN PERSON. OR EVEN  INSTANT MESSAGING.

FUCK.  In the first place, I never wanted her to know that I liked her a lot.  Fucking blog footprints man.

I was so happy when I woke up, finding the house shaking.

And then it was done.  And I was sad. And sleepy and hot.

I wonder if we can be friends again if I am in a serious relationship with someone else...

Ah I think I found the answer...

I should always remember she wanted a BMW at one point.

Maybe I can get over her if I keep thinking that.  BMW drivers are... Lol.

I think I'll just wait.  I will know when it is over when there is concrete proof that she is in a relationship already.