Oh fuck, I think I get it now.

I was "pushing" her when she was saying that "you know how it feels" thing.  I was like, "but what about how I feel... do you know what it's like to be in love."  AND from that she probably thought I was pushing her BUT WHAT I REALLY WANTED was a proper rejection like what everyone else gets.

But I did not say that.  I am forgetting all the important stuff, thinking she knows how I think.  She does not know how I think at all.  Fuck.  Damn it.  Now I need to tell her this.

DAMNIT. THIS IS WHY WE NEED TO TALK FACE TO FACE.  OR IN PERSON. OR EVEN  INSTANT MESSAGING.

FUCK.  In the first place, I never wanted her to know that I liked her a lot.  Fucking blog footprints man.