I'm writing... all my posts are drafts... I can't finish anything Lol

Okay, I'm really going to do it!

I'm going to write everyday for sure... I have so much to talk about...

Well, not really "write," more like "talking to my blog."  (So you people who actually do come across this and read it won't judge me for my grammar mistakes!)

WOAh the voice actor for Bulbasaur (first voice actor for Bulbasaur U.S, and Melonie from the Bulbasaur episode... and SETO KAIBA's BROTHER, AND SETA SOJIRO FROM KENSHIN) LIKED... I repeat... LIKED my instagram post... crazyyYYYY. So I followed her, Lol.

Her name is Tara Jayne Sands.  I thought it was really cool.  She liked this post of mine:

I have so many posts in Draft... I can't finish anything Lol

It includes:

-Thoughts on basketball
-Why I am choosing not to be a teacher
-A response to Moving On
-Knowing all GFriend members names

I like Gfriend a lot.  They're so cool especially SinB (she's the one in black, on this video). I feel so weird watching and liking this music since I think I'm nearing that old age, but I really like the lyrics (it's on the offical MV on Youtube if you turn on captions) and the dance.  The song kinda relates to how I'm feeling at the moment and SinB's expression when she dances is like "twirly twirly fuck you all I'm gonna kick, shit" It's like you can think of anything and just put that thought into SinB's thoughts since her expression is so neutral.

I never been so captivated at a Kpop group since the Nothing Last Forever days of Girl's Day which was like... more than five years ago.

Um... a surprise sequel?

Just letting you know that I decided to move on.

Sorry about my attitute at the end. Realizing that he actually was your boyfriend and you not ever going to talk to me about what I did, clouded my judgment.  Him siding with you made it worse.  Most people would say to just tell me what I did three years ago, so I can move on. But he sided with you.  So, the only thing on my mind at the time was to break you two up, which resulted in me saying disgusting things about you.  Not only that, it took you forever to respond... here I was, going out of character, being vulnerable, being open, saying everything on my mind, being impulsive hoping for a good conversation and a true closure but it took more than an hour for a single response!  If it takes that long to respond, then it's BS.  It's dishonest BS.  It wasn't even a converstaion.  You sent your messages in long bulks.  This is why I say it's BS.  And you made him respond to the things I was joking in too, not the important issues. Was that even him?  Or were you lying once again?

But I understand.  You did not want to hurt me, because I am now a stalker and nothing else.  You don't know anything about me because you refused to understand me, even though I understood you.  The thing is, we never ended our friendship.  No closure meant we were still friends, at least in my eyes.  You just waited for time to destroy everything? It's too bad time does not erode my feelings.  Criminal relationship? Just because you can't spend ten minutes to talk which could have saved you three years.  It could have saved you from the thoughts that hurt you. You just disappeared, and I felt like it was all my fault, and it was my job to track you down and make up for everything.  You didn't do anything.  You don't care about friendship, you just like spitting that word out because you're desperate for attention since no one else likes you. What did I even do?  Fall in love with you?  And you just shoved me aside.  I'm moving on.  Fuck you. 

PS: My favorite LCS team is SKE48 T1K... F3

Ah, not sending this though.. an unsent letter!  But it'll be in my back pocket just in case something happens... I'll use this.

Another thing that annoyed me... was how long it took to get a simple response.

Here I was being all emotional, vulnerable, and saying whatever was on my mind... and here she is getting her "boyfriend" to talk to me, waiting, getting technical with responses, and responding with bulky ass shit, while I'm doing one liners, trying to make it all sound natural... because that's what you do when you talk.  You talk with honesty and it's most honest when it's natural, not calculated long ass BS!!!

I feel like responding to that last message...

Because I responded when I was tired and angry.  It's not fair.  This instant messaging days.

I should have waited a week... and it's been a week.  It's a good time to respond.  But it's already over.

The last message was "ATTACK ATTACK ATTACk goodbye."  A hit and run.  Not fair.  Didn't give me a chance to attack.

Ugh it's so annoying!  Here I am being a responsible friend and what do I get?  Shit!  I get shit!