Ah I've been thinking of 1Q84 and Final Fantasy VIII...

I don't like 1Q84 a lot... it's supposed to be an epic love story.  I think Final Fantasy VIII's is better and cuter, and more realistic-ish.

 The whole Laguna and Julia thing... and then Laguna having a second love after Julia, and having a child with her.  And then Julia, marrying someone else who's not Laguna and having a child with him... and the children fall in love when they're all grown up.

Maybe my future child will marry her future child... Lol

I've been trying to limit my internt usage.  My productivity decreases when I'm online, because all I do is stalk her, and it is useless now that she really did move on, and does not remember me.

So that's easy.  I don't turn on my computer anymore.

Now, the problem.  I have an Ipad.

And I changed my wallpaper.

To Mirururururn so fking cute wtf I just press the home button just to see her face like every five minutes, then I check Neko Atsume, and then i exit and check my wallpaper home page thing again, SO CUTE WTF.

Mirurun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually nevermind, not going to move on...

If moving on means that I'll talk to girls to date them... I am not going to do that.

I'm just going to be here.  And do what I normally do.

Which is being a total nerrrrrd and thinker of goofy stuff.

List of games I want...

-Kingdom Hearts Rechain of Memories
-Wild Arms
-Wild Arms II
-Wild Arms V
-Shadow Hearts
-Shadow Hearts Covenant
-Shadow Hearts to the New World
-Shin Megami Tensei Nocturne

Moving on without a closure...

I read somewhere that writing a list of the person's cons can help me move on...

-Really ugly
-Thinks she's cute, but really ugly
-Bad taste in fashion
-Ugly yellow teeth
-Bad to her parents
-Refuses to talk about important issues
-Hypocritical
-Believes in the dumb politicians
-Refuses to understand other people
-Dishonest
-Liar
-Flirty
-Big hands
-Big feet
-Slippers
-Bad to her sister
-Unappreciative of what she has
-Says bad words
-Doesn't read novels
-Too many relatives
-Inconsiderate
-Doesn't listen to George Carlin
-My mom would call her ugly
-My dad would call her ugly
-My brother would call her ugly
-My cousin would call her ugly
-Shit, everyone will think she ugly!!!

Of course she has a lot of good things about her... but I'm writing this to move on, not to fall for her again.

I'll start playing some games so I can move on.  I'll start with Suikoden because it seems like the game that would remind me least of her.  I know Xenogears is virtually an epic love story.

I'll start with my PSX collection, then move on to Dreamcast, and then maybe PS2...  note that these are just console JRPGs.

PSX:
Suikoden
Suikoden II
Xenogears
Persona 2
Final Fantasy VIII
Grandia

Dreamcast:
Grandia II
Skies of Arcadia

PS2:
Phantasy Star II
Phantasy Star III
Phantasy Star IV
Suikoden III
Suikoden IV
Suikoden V
Final Fantasy XII
Wild Arms 3
Wild Arms 4

It's useless for me to hold on.  I'm not even her friend anymore.  I can't help her when her relationship is on the rocks.

But whatever.

I'm going to still stalk her, to spite her boyfriend though.
She didn't even talk to me in the end.  So I feel unresolved.
He says he doesn't tolerate stalking.  Well, I say fuck that!

Damn, I hate friends that suck!

Anyways, so long my love, Summer of 2012- February... something 2016, because I know I'll move on by March.

Ah.  She has a boyfriend now.  She did not wait for me.  Fuck.