I think she made her Instagram private because she saw me Liking our mutal friend's newly created Instagram's pictures.

She liked a photo of our friend, and she probably thinks that I am going to look at her instagram now...

BUT.

I have always known her Instagram;  we were actually talking at the time she made it and even showed me a picture on it three years ago.

Her Instagram is nothing new to me.  In fact, I have been subscribed to it through Feedly for years.  LOL.

The creeping never stops!!!

I think I am losing interest in her though.  It has been almost three years since we spoke to each other directly.  Moving on has never felt so closer than before.

I am starting to forget what we had.

My body is aching all over...

But I am still eating A LOT of ice cream.

I don't know if the ice cream has anything to do with it though.

Why would you live in America if you do not want to make any money?

Fuck it, gonna go nursing.

Oh fuck, I think I get it now.

I was "pushing" her when she was saying that "you know how it feels" thing.  I was like, "but what about how I feel... do you know what it's like to be in love."  AND from that she probably thought I was pushing her BUT WHAT I REALLY WANTED was a proper rejection like what everyone else gets.

But I did not say that.  I am forgetting all the important stuff, thinking she knows how I think.  She does not know how I think at all.  Fuck.  Damn it.  Now I need to tell her this.

DAMNIT. THIS IS WHY WE NEED TO TALK FACE TO FACE.  OR IN PERSON. OR EVEN  INSTANT MESSAGING.

FUCK.  In the first place, I never wanted her to know that I liked her a lot.  Fucking blog footprints man.

I was so happy when I woke up, finding the house shaking.

And then it was done.  And I was sad. And sleepy and hot.

I wonder if we can be friends again if I am in a serious relationship with someone else...

Ah I think I found the answer...

I should always remember she wanted a BMW at one point.

Maybe I can get over her if I keep thinking that.  BMW drivers are... Lol.