Tuesday, May 12, 2015

I never thought of driving as fun until I watched a few episodes of Initial D.

I avoided driving for so long.  I got my license seven years ago but I never use it.  I used to drive to school when I was in high school.  But after that, I just stopped.

Not only did I think it was too dangerous, but I thought it was the most capitalist thing to do.  So I avoided it.  I thought it was the wrong thing to do, putting gas into the atmosphere, killing the future human race, trying to not be a hypocrite, blah blah blah.

Now I am like... Idgaf.  The human race is done.  We're all going to die and we'll never advance the greater good.  So, I'm going to drive and have fun and be like everyone else. And I'll feel closer to her.

So yeah.  I think when something is fun, someone has to tell me.  I can't find joy in something I find myself.  Someone has to confirm that something is fun, and thus, I can have fun. I guess.

Monday, May 11, 2015

I was at a Thrift Store for approximately ten minutes and I opened up and scrimmed through this thick book on suicide.  Near the middle, and underlined, there was a passage that said something like individualism is a cause of suicide.  Individualism is a cause of suicide.

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Glad that there's a 2x setting to speed up videos on YouTube... I am getting so much anime done.

Friday, May 8, 2015

I read somewhere that the month of May has the highest rates of suicide... I feel that to be true.

Sunday, May 3, 2015

RIP Boxing, never watching it again.  Mayweather "fighting" so.. ResidentSleeper.

Saturday, May 2, 2015

I think Manny's going to win.  TKO round 11.  TMT will surrender.

Friday, May 1, 2015

I met my online friend for ten years IRL.

She and her BF had business in California.  

It's too bad that happy moments in my life only happen spontaneously... or maybe all happy moments are spontaneous?

Anyways, any happy moments are better than non happy moments.

I didn't feel comfortable until we played this four way Pac Man game.  Pac Man game at the Metreon was fun.  I guess just going outside just made me uncomfortable because I don't do it often, especially being in the middle of a big city.  And I needed a haircut.  And a weightcut. 

My mom says I am a snob.  A new thing to ponder...  maybe I'll be more free and less snobish if I have one of those jobs that everyone else has.  

But having a job wouldn't be a problem, if I just pursued my career as a teacher. But I didn't because I keep thinking up reasons why I shouldn't. And I am scared and run away from everything. 
I've never thought of video games as toys until now... it changes everything....