Got a bunch of Manga from the Thrift Store for 10 bucks BWAHAHAA.

No space on my book shelf so I stack them on my night stand. 

It feels too weird to move on.  I don't think I'll move on.

Ever since I was little I never liked anything human-looking.

In the children's section of the public library... there were books... with faces of people.  I never borrowed those.  I always chose the books with the anthropomorphic animals, no matter how boring the book was, I would re-borrow those books.  Those books without human-looking characters.

Human disliking began at a young age for me...

Why?  Why was I like that?!?!?!

This is the closest I'll ever get to this person.  I should not expect anything more.

If she asks me "why do you like/love me?"

I'll respond by saying,

You're just like me.  You're the female version of me. And I want to love myself, forever and ever!

Gah everything is so pointless!!!

Maybe I just need a new video game... Lol.

Or I just need to bother other people... can't bother the same people I usually bother because THEY'RE SO BORING :((( (or I am approaching them with an angle that makes them boring)  EITHER WAY, I just can't connect.

Meh, it has been almost three years.  I have decided to not move on because I can't, and I'll just wait around until she's in a relationship, because from that I'll know that I can definitely move on... but right now, I can't move on.  It's not that I do not talk to girls... I think I actually talk to a lot more girls than guys... single girls too, but it's like meh, I don't get the same kind of excitement in talking or I feel like I'll be cheating on her, or like, I don't even care about anything, I just talk because I like to talk... I am saying this because I know so many people are like wth, she's cute and you're not doing anything!  And I'm like... IDC, coz really IDC, going to wait til she's in a relationship, then I'll probably wait around til my feelings are completely dead, and then after that I'll be so drained or w/e and looking old but IDK what I'm even talking about I just want her to get into a relationship already so I can move on... kinda but not really, wish she'd just talk to me again.

And wtf she used to have like 8 followers on Instagram and now it's plus six... and I know she doesn't play Nasus.

Edit: And her followers keep increasing who are theyyyy :(((.  Yeah, not a good sign if I don't want her to have followers Lol.  Y IS IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO MOVE ON.

EDIT2: AND the likes she's getting from the new selfie she posted are all from BOYS :((((

The Fifty Shades of Gray girl is only one year older than me.  And no one is talking about how old she is.... I guess saying that says a lot about me.

I am old AF!