WOW I NEVER KNEW YOU CAN SLOW DOWN AND SPEED UP VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE NOW. DANCE TUTORIALS HERE I COME LOL.
EDIT: WTF I SAID SLEEP INSTEAD OF SPEED. And that's what I did today, on this Veteran's Day... slept all afternoon.
Monday, November 11, 2013
Friday, November 8, 2013
Psyched Back Up
Because I'm learning about Rome.
They succeeded even when things looked bad because of their: Persistence, and resistance to feeling in denial. Mwahahahaha, I'm back in this! ... this is so stupid. But this is the only thing I'm holding onto in life. TRUE LOVE EXISTS, BECAUSE I'LL MAKE IT EXIST.
They succeeded even when things looked bad because of their: Persistence, and resistance to feeling in denial. Mwahahahaha, I'm back in this! ... this is so stupid. But this is the only thing I'm holding onto in life. TRUE LOVE EXISTS, BECAUSE I'LL MAKE IT EXIST.
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Story Outline
Maybe I like certain words because I'm used to them, and I'm rejecting anything new .
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I thought of a story idea for an RPG, where the main antagonist rejects future thinking, and historical thinking. He favors mass destruction because human thought is leading no where. He believes we are stuck in the same perspective plane and can't improve anything for the "greater picture" and so he wants to demolish it, as humans are so limited to everything because of emotions, but he also believes that history and evolution of thought plays a part in it as well. He wants to start a new breed of thought free from the teachings of history.
A member of the protagonist team reveals himself as a deity, born from a parallel world that separated at a point in the time flow and was supposed to be born anew, and during his reborn process, saw modern human consciousness as the escape and the right way from what it could have been. He has experienced the "much worse" world. This deity from another world is exactly the same as all other humans, except his experience in the alternate universe.
What could have been is much "worse" than what is, as it accomplishes nothing. It does nothing to balance the "cycle".
The cycle is the god, as everything repeats itself, and there are other parallel cycles occuring at the same time, for an unknown reason. It's just the way it is, just like how time is what it is, it goes on.
The answer of course, and how beings survived in the parallel "much worse" universe was finding "true love". Through love, it was brought into the modern human cycle, which keeps everything going, and how everything is going well as long as there is love. This occured in the fourth cycle. The cycle itself had a mutation which has brought that single deity into the "real world".
Also, this has to deal with death. When monsters die in the world, they melt back into the world as a thought and linger in the unconscious world that connects to dreams.
And now I'm rereading this and wth am I thinking, now I'm confused. GOD. IT MADE SO MUCH SENSE WHEN I WAS TAKING A SHOWER.
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I thought of a story idea for an RPG, where the main antagonist rejects future thinking, and historical thinking. He favors mass destruction because human thought is leading no where. He believes we are stuck in the same perspective plane and can't improve anything for the "greater picture" and so he wants to demolish it, as humans are so limited to everything because of emotions, but he also believes that history and evolution of thought plays a part in it as well. He wants to start a new breed of thought free from the teachings of history.
A member of the protagonist team reveals himself as a deity, born from a parallel world that separated at a point in the time flow and was supposed to be born anew, and during his reborn process, saw modern human consciousness as the escape and the right way from what it could have been. He has experienced the "much worse" world. This deity from another world is exactly the same as all other humans, except his experience in the alternate universe.
What could have been is much "worse" than what is, as it accomplishes nothing. It does nothing to balance the "cycle".
The cycle is the god, as everything repeats itself, and there are other parallel cycles occuring at the same time, for an unknown reason. It's just the way it is, just like how time is what it is, it goes on.
The answer of course, and how beings survived in the parallel "much worse" universe was finding "true love". Through love, it was brought into the modern human cycle, which keeps everything going, and how everything is going well as long as there is love. This occured in the fourth cycle. The cycle itself had a mutation which has brought that single deity into the "real world".
Also, this has to deal with death. When monsters die in the world, they melt back into the world as a thought and linger in the unconscious world that connects to dreams.
And now I'm rereading this and wth am I thinking, now I'm confused. GOD. IT MADE SO MUCH SENSE WHEN I WAS TAKING A SHOWER.
Work
I want to work... but not for the money, I just don't want to feel so arrogant... it's a weird feeling. It's like, I don't have to work because I am not committed to anyone or anything, but more like... this could be the same feeling people get when they are out of place? Being so detached, all I can do is be undetached. Unless I detach myself some more. But really, sometimes I feel like I really am looking down on everyone because they all seem so half awake.
I just want to shake them up but I don't want to, partly because I don't care what they do, and another part is... that I'm too socially anxious to make those moves. The only reason I would want them to wake up is so that I don't look so stupid saying things that make sense but does not to them. Maybe it's my problem to make my things make more sense. I want to bring myself back down, because that's what I am. An ordinary person like everyone else.
It just feels so weird. Just so uncomfortable. My thoughts and my feelings are so uncomfortable. I wonder if I'm complaining. I cringe at the thought of people thinking that I complain or me coming out as snobby. I don't even like that word but I can't think of any word to say instead of snobby, and sometimes when I don't like a word, I just don't say it at all. That's how sensitive my aesthetics are. My phonetic aesthetics. Which then leads to unsent words... which then leads to misunderstanding, and miscommunication...
I just want to shake them up but I don't want to, partly because I don't care what they do, and another part is... that I'm too socially anxious to make those moves. The only reason I would want them to wake up is so that I don't look so stupid saying things that make sense but does not to them. Maybe it's my problem to make my things make more sense. I want to bring myself back down, because that's what I am. An ordinary person like everyone else.
It just feels so weird. Just so uncomfortable. My thoughts and my feelings are so uncomfortable. I wonder if I'm complaining. I cringe at the thought of people thinking that I complain or me coming out as snobby. I don't even like that word but I can't think of any word to say instead of snobby, and sometimes when I don't like a word, I just don't say it at all. That's how sensitive my aesthetics are. My phonetic aesthetics. Which then leads to unsent words... which then leads to misunderstanding, and miscommunication...
Sunday, November 3, 2013
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