I have one more week...

Either one more week, or two more months...

Life is Too Long

I think because life is too long, we feel that we have so much time to "make the most out of it", or at least, think about making the most out of it.

If life was short, we'd be content with how it is already...  because there's not much that everyone can actually do in that short amount of time...

?!?!!

It's still too early.  Going back to bed.

How to Feel Better When You're At Home

-Imagine yourself away from home.  Really imagine it.  This should make you wish you were at home, and so by being actually at home, you'll feel better that you are home.

I probably just imagined myself doing my best and giving it all...

but most likely, I did not.  It was all in my mind, in actuality meaning nothing at all.

I don't know if I should work towards being happy or more sad...

If I"m happy, she might see that I'm doing fine without her, thus she'll feel bad because I don't need her anymore since I can be happy without her...

If I'm sad, she might not want to talk to a sad loser, and I'll have no chance at all, and it'll show that I'm so incompetent...

This sucks!  I guess I can show both... like... HI, I'm SO SAD ^___^.
Ugh!

Ugh I want this day to be over already...

Being dedicated in waiting for something that will never come hurts a lot too.

Having memories of something that other people were supposed to remember but do not remember kind of hurts too.

Hope I fall asleep and never wake up.

And I hope I have another heart warming dream tonight.