I don't know if I should work towards being happy or more sad...

If I"m happy, she might see that I'm doing fine without her, thus she'll feel bad because I don't need her anymore since I can be happy without her...

If I'm sad, she might not want to talk to a sad loser, and I'll have no chance at all, and it'll show that I'm so incompetent...

This sucks!  I guess I can show both... like... HI, I'm SO SAD ^___^.
Ugh!