A Comment

You said you won't read or respond to messages.  Well, this is a comment, not a message, and you can respond to this and I won't say you are a hypocrite.

But either way, I can't take your message seriously because of a typo, "you obviously you can't", and because of this, I now know how an employer interviewing for an interview feels like.

You said I SHOULD stop viewing your Tumblr, but you didn't say you HAVE to, so I'll view it anyways, because I'm creepy, okay?  And you only talk to me if I become creepy so that's what I'll do.  Even if I can't take your message seriously, I cherish it.  I think I've even memorized it, and it makes me smile because of how much I miss hearing directly from you.

And IDGAF that you don't like me.  I only care about myself and that I love you.

I also made a hate message and a not so hate message, which one would you like to hear?  I don't know because I'm not naturally really angry or really nice so I don't know which one you'd like to read, or not read at all, but I really want to write to you again....

(Back up plan: Force third parties to be involved.  She can't hate on her... my only problem will be when my third party turns her back on me...)

I don't want to do anything.

I failed at all my dreams and aspirations.

I can only celebrate with empathy.

Change of Strategy

I really can't do anything slow.

I HAVE to do everything fast.

So the thing I have to actually work on, is LOOKING OVER MY WORK.

If she didn't read my first message, NONE of the afterones would have made sense... fuck, now I feel stupid.  Wish she would have responded but noOoO she's fucking immature as fuck.

I'm in love with everything about you except what I don't know about you. And when I learn those things that I don't know about you... I'll love those things too.

LOL my own quotes makes me feel so giddy about myself... lala I'm sooo cool.

Show your heart and you get burned. 

10 Day Challenge, Day 10

Ah, today concludes this ten day challenge series.  It's been fun, and has been keeping me on BlogSpot... though I think other thoughts made me blog here more than normal, I've even forgetten about the challenege for a couple of days.  Anyways,

10. One confession

I want to die instantly with no pain right now.  I'm really tired of being deceived and confused with everything that's going on.  I don't give a fuck... I don't give a fuck... and there are those thoughts that makes me such a hypocrite, which is stupid because I am who I am, and just fuck it!  I don't know, what the fuck, how come she just left me like that...

And what the fuck, this is not even a confession.  Well, I guess it is embarrassing, feeling that need to die because only losers feel that way?  I don't know, but why the fuck did she just leave me like that... I feel so deceived and stupid... not like I invested real capital on her, but the emotional toll I have and time I've put in devastates me... fuck!