It's fucking stupid to forget.
It's fucking stupid to forget.
It's fucking stupid to forget.
It's fucking stupid to forget
It's fucking stupid to forget.
It's fucking stupid to forget
It's fucking stupid to forget.
It's fucking stupid to forget
It's fucking stupid to forget.
It's fucking stupid to forget
It's fucking stupid to forget.
It's fucking stupid to forget
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
ehHEHEHEHE.
"Judging the mistakes of strangers is an easy thing to do... and it feels pretty good." - SPUTNIK SWEETHEART
That quote has no relation to what I'm about to say.
And I think I know why I'm not crying. I have it embedded in my mind that a man cannot cry until its all over. And it isn't over, it never was over!
That's why I have to remind myself: a month from now... thump thump thump.
Saturday was my uncle's birthday, and a few of my cousins came over to my house. We celebrated it in my house, because my uncle wanted to celebrate it at my house. I guess its because its bigger and there's a lot of space.
So while waiting for my birthday uncle, my other uncle, auntie, and cousin decided to visit my grandpa's grave, and so we went... and like on the way I asked where my cousins BF was, because she's always with him, and she was like w/e, I don't care.
And then after visiting my grandpa, we arrive home and her BF was there with my other cousin and his GF, and he just like went up and kissed her or w/e, and it was so cute wtf, I thought they were like in a relationship turmoil...
And its like what can I do in situations like this... NOTHING AT ALL, because its LDR, unless I like show how not creepy I am IRL which is my goal right now, I have to meet her to verify that she's not the one, or if she's the one. I know I'm all around kick ass!
So yeah, we celebrated... hella fun. We had a 4 vs 4 basketball game. My team lost, but my stat line was like 6-2-4 or something, playing up to 16 points. I think I did pretty good in the beginning because I was like passing it to everyone and I stole the ball like twice or something lol. It was like a playground, they were riding our bikes around our backyard, doing pull ups in our pull up bar and so much outdoor fun @_@ I LOVE FAMILY.. unconditional love <3 ...="" about="" because="" don="" forever.="" fucking="" have="" nbsp="" p="" personality="" re="" t="" tied="" to="" together="" up="" we="" worry="" you="" your="">
That quote has no relation to what I'm about to say.
And I think I know why I'm not crying. I have it embedded in my mind that a man cannot cry until its all over. And it isn't over, it never was over!
That's why I have to remind myself: a month from now... thump thump thump.
Saturday was my uncle's birthday, and a few of my cousins came over to my house. We celebrated it in my house, because my uncle wanted to celebrate it at my house. I guess its because its bigger and there's a lot of space.
So while waiting for my birthday uncle, my other uncle, auntie, and cousin decided to visit my grandpa's grave, and so we went... and like on the way I asked where my cousins BF was, because she's always with him, and she was like w/e, I don't care.
And then after visiting my grandpa, we arrive home and her BF was there with my other cousin and his GF, and he just like went up and kissed her or w/e, and it was so cute wtf, I thought they were like in a relationship turmoil...
And its like what can I do in situations like this... NOTHING AT ALL, because its LDR, unless I like show how not creepy I am IRL which is my goal right now, I have to meet her to verify that she's not the one, or if she's the one. I know I'm all around kick ass!
So yeah, we celebrated... hella fun. We had a 4 vs 4 basketball game. My team lost, but my stat line was like 6-2-4 or something, playing up to 16 points. I think I did pretty good in the beginning because I was like passing it to everyone and I stole the ball like twice or something lol. It was like a playground, they were riding our bikes around our backyard, doing pull ups in our pull up bar and so much outdoor fun @_@ I LOVE FAMILY.. unconditional love <3 ...="" about="" because="" don="" forever.="" fucking="" have="" nbsp="" p="" personality="" re="" t="" tied="" to="" together="" up="" we="" worry="" you="" your="">
Monday, May 27, 2013
Love Summary
So maybe the prophecy thing was right.
This is the thing I'm referring to: "Before you can grow up, you must fall in love three times. Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more. Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve. And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.
And when you're through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that hurt you, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.
But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved."
Maybe I completed this, and I'm set free!
And when you're through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that hurt you, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.
But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved."
Maybe I completed this, and I'm set free!
Just a side note though, but I've "loved" a girl that's too tall, too fat, and too ugly. Maybe the next one is the "too perfect"? Lol. I'm not saying that too tall, too fat, or too ugly in a disparaging way though, because that's really what they looked like physically, but I absolutely loved their inner qualities which made me, well, love them.
So yeah, this person must have been the third one. What I want to be: Hella fucking rich, hella fucking rich, hella fucking rich! And then keep all my money somewhere to ruin the economic distribution in our country.
Empathy of the Earth
Usually during these tumultuous times in my head,I'd cry... but I really didn't. I think I tried to which caused me to go temporary insane, but I really couldn't shed a tear.
But today, in the middle of all these sunshiny weather, it happens to rain today. Perhaps the sky is crying for me, knowing that I can't cry.
And that'll do.
But today, in the middle of all these sunshiny weather, it happens to rain today. Perhaps the sky is crying for me, knowing that I can't cry.
And that'll do.
10 Day Challenge, Day 8
8. Three turn ons
1. Cries a lot
2. Talks to me
3. Blogs (apparently all the girls I've ever liked, blogged)
Edit: June 2, 2013, 12:00 Noon. Instead of "talks to me", I'd say really loves me and appreciates me genuinely... I think I want a relationship where I am loved.
1. Cries a lot
2. Talks to me
3. Blogs (apparently all the girls I've ever liked, blogged)
Edit: June 2, 2013, 12:00 Noon. Instead of "talks to me", I'd say really loves me and appreciates me genuinely... I think I want a relationship where I am loved.
Sunday, May 26, 2013
the thing about falling for someone after being friends...
Is that you don't know how to act once you realize you fell...
You start doing different things... like maybe it was just for attention?
But really, try staying the same... just be the same, and that was my problem... I tried changing for her... I tried to imitate the people whom she probably would like.
But I'm not like that. I'm really not like that. I was who I was, and what I tried to be, I am not.
But maybe I am who I tried to be: I am that process of what I was trying to be.
Was I just trying to manipulate her into thinking what the kind of person she thinks she likes?
I don't know.
And I probably won't, because I don't, and only God knows. I'm only humans, and each human's different...
There's nothing I could have done, but I felt that I have the capabilities to do so, because we are all human and we can do what other humans can do, right?
But each human ignites a certain feeling towards other humans that can't be imitated... that I think, cannot be immitated. This is why first impressions count so much... I guess.
I don't know.
When they fall in love, they are truly blind with it, allowing it to consume them.
You start doing different things... like maybe it was just for attention?
But really, try staying the same... just be the same, and that was my problem... I tried changing for her... I tried to imitate the people whom she probably would like.
But I'm not like that. I'm really not like that. I was who I was, and what I tried to be, I am not.
But maybe I am who I tried to be: I am that process of what I was trying to be.
Was I just trying to manipulate her into thinking what the kind of person she thinks she likes?
I don't know.
And I probably won't, because I don't, and only God knows. I'm only humans, and each human's different...
There's nothing I could have done, but I felt that I have the capabilities to do so, because we are all human and we can do what other humans can do, right?
But each human ignites a certain feeling towards other humans that can't be imitated... that I think, cannot be immitated. This is why first impressions count so much... I guess.
I don't know.
When they fall in love, they are truly blind with it, allowing it to consume them.
Consumed right now, yes.
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