the thing about falling for someone after being friends...

Is that you don't know how to act once you realize you fell...

You start doing different things... like maybe it was just for attention?

But really, try staying the same... just be the same, and that was my problem... I tried changing for her... I tried to imitate the people whom she probably would like.


But I'm not like that.  I'm really not like that.  I was who I was, and what I tried to be, I am not.

But maybe I am who I tried to be: I am that process of what I was trying to be.

Was I just trying to manipulate her into thinking what the kind of person she thinks she likes?

I don't know.

And I probably won't, because I don't, and only God knows.  I'm only humans, and each human's different...

There's nothing I could have done, but I felt that I have the capabilities to do so, because we are all human and we can do what other humans can do, right?

But each human ignites a certain feeling towards other humans that can't be imitated... that I think, cannot be immitated.  This is why first impressions count so much... I guess.

I don't know.

When they fall in love, they are truly blind with it, allowing it to consume them.

Consumed right now, yes.