Love Summary

So maybe the prophecy thing was right.

This is the thing I'm referring to: "Before you can grow up, you must fall in love three times. Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more. Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve. And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.
And when you're through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that hurt you, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.

But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved."

Maybe I completed this, and I'm set free!

Just a side note though, but I've "loved" a girl that's too tall, too fat, and too ugly. Maybe the next one is the "too perfect"? Lol. I'm not saying that too tall, too fat, or too ugly in a disparaging way though, because that's really what they looked like physically, but I absolutely loved their inner qualities which made me, well, love them.

So yeah, this person must have been the third one.  What I want to be:  Hella fucking rich, hella fucking rich, hella fucking rich!  And then keep all my money somewhere to ruin the economic distribution in our country. 

If I don't fuck up, it means I don't love her.

Empathy of the Earth

Usually during these tumultuous times in my head,I'd cry... but I really didn't.  I think I tried to which caused me to go temporary insane, but I really couldn't shed a tear.

But today, in the middle of all these sunshiny weather, it happens to rain today.  Perhaps the sky is crying for me, knowing that I can't cry.

And that'll do.

Dammit, I WAS JUST PLAYING WITH THE HIT COUNTER.

And bitch you didn't say please.

10 Day Challenge, Day 8

8. Three turn ons

1. Cries a lot
2. Talks to me
3. Blogs (apparently all the girls I've ever liked, blogged)

Edit: June 2, 2013, 12:00 Noon.  Instead of "talks to me", I'd say really loves me and appreciates me genuinely... I think I want a relationship where I am loved.

the thing about falling for someone after being friends...

Is that you don't know how to act once you realize you fell...

You start doing different things... like maybe it was just for attention?

But really, try staying the same... just be the same, and that was my problem... I tried changing for her... I tried to imitate the people whom she probably would like.


But I'm not like that.  I'm really not like that.  I was who I was, and what I tried to be, I am not.

But maybe I am who I tried to be: I am that process of what I was trying to be.

Was I just trying to manipulate her into thinking what the kind of person she thinks she likes?

I don't know.

And I probably won't, because I don't, and only God knows.  I'm only humans, and each human's different...

There's nothing I could have done, but I felt that I have the capabilities to do so, because we are all human and we can do what other humans can do, right?

But each human ignites a certain feeling towards other humans that can't be imitated... that I think, cannot be immitated.  This is why first impressions count so much... I guess.

I don't know.

When they fall in love, they are truly blind with it, allowing it to consume them.

Consumed right now, yes.

lalala~

hearing from you was like listening to a really good song
stalking you was like downloading that song illegally.

10 Day Challenege, Day 7

7. Four turn offs

1. Bigotry
2. Slippers with jeans
3. Smells bad (a lot of perfume smells bad too)
4. Weird make-up