Yup, going out sucks.  I'm never going out ever again. 

Also... I don't know if I liked Octopath Traveler II.  All the bosses, the antagonists... they are all kinda the same.  The same ol "HAHAHAHAAHAHA" villain.  It is so disappointing.

I Think...

 I'm totally done with Video Games.  I was playing Octopath Traveler 2 and just having a terrible time with it.  Falling asleep during cutscenes, just being unprepared for combat and losing, wasting time, feeling like it's all a waste of time.  I really enjoyed the first one.  I almost 100%'ed it but didn't even bother with the final hidden boss because I was told it takes like eight hours... time is more precious these days... so I hate it, I feel horrible playing it.  Especially when I lose and get a Game Over. Like this morning.

I think I wanted to like it because there was a Nurse character, and I have fond memories of using "Scrutinize" and the Nurse character does do just that..

Then there's Trails in the Sky the 1st.  I think I just suck at it, and I don't want to get any better in it.  Not enjoying any of these JRPGs and it is making me sad... like, what do I do now?

MY 2025 GAME OF THE YEAR

 ... Is Pokemon Legends ZA!!!

I had the most fun with it.  

It modernized this little concept of avoiding other trainers:

Well, bad example, but I couldn't find a gif or the drive to make my own gif.  And the DLC too, it just feels so wholesome with the little Donuts and stuff.  The donut making part of it is annoying though and it can be stressful... but for the most part, I like it a lot.  After finishing X and Y I always wanted a Z and this is the Z I was waiting for.

Uh...

 Nope! I don't think so. 

 I don't know if I should write about it..

If I did, I would feel like I would want someone to read it...

and I'll be disappointed because I know I can't find anyone who would want to read it. 

 I woke up thinking about killing myself again, then I day dreamed about it. 

 

This guy is also 35... in his latest appearance anyawy. 

One Week Until Six Years

 I think the most disappointing thing about this whole experience was that it did not teach me anything new... it was all something I already knew...

I could think that it just reinforces what I already know

... but I really did not want that to happen.

Should I be writing again?...?!?!?!?

 Should I?!?!?!?!??!

Anway, it has been exactly six years ago since I met her.  

Eleven days from now, it would be exactly six years ago that we've made contact. 

I think I'll write about it.  So that it is here, and that it perhaps existed.  To materialize it into words, and into a story that I perhaps, would have never told anyone.  In full detail at least, or to the amount of detail that I have always wanted to tell it.  

More Thirty Five

 Sirius Black was also 35 in the Goblet of Fire... 

Forgot what he did in that book.

When did he give Harry the Firebolt?

I think he was my age when he gave Harry the Firebolt. 

Dirty Vibe

This guy was supposed to be 34, so he is 34.

This guy is 35...

And this guy is 35...

And this old man is 35:

And these dead people are 35:

Forgot the June Post

 I forgot to write in June

 I thought I was going to start writing again this month but I didn't... 

Nothing.

 Read somewhere Jesus was 33 when he died...

And Buddha was 35 when he "awakened" (became WOKE??!)... or became enlightened?

Well, I'm 34.  I guess I "died" when I started working at 33.  Maybe I'll become enlightened when I quit playing video games at 35?  I'm thinking maybe I'll be 35 by the time I finish Metaphor ReFantazio, and that'll be it... no more new games because the ones I have already and my backlog will last a life time..

Anyway, here are my top 10 JRPGs since I can't stop thinking about it.

1. Super Mario RPG

2. Chrono Trigger

3. Xenosaga Ep. III

4. Persona 3 Reload

5. Pokemon Black/White

6. Golden Sun Books I & 2

7. Phantasy Star II

8. Earthbound Beginnings 

9. Final Fantasy Tactics

10. NieR Automata

I do have a Blog...

 I forgot all about this... I kept thinking I'll reset, but, that would mean I'll be resetting every hour or so.  I do not have time to create a whole new blog site every hour.  And the past and everything on here is who I am I guess...

Anyway... I'll continue to write here... 

I got punched in the head at work so I'll be on Worker's Comp... I'm so... diZzY...

NO 2024 POST???

 I'll edit one in, this 3/31/2025. HAH!

 In the past week I finished... I mean, I got up to the credits of:

NieR Replicant, four times.  My thoughts on this?  Hmm.  It did not resonate with me as much as I thought it would.  Easily one of the better games out there though.  Something about objects having a soul. My brother does that and is a hoarder.  So, it's like encouraging me to become a hoarder too. 

Disco Elysium.  Yup, finally. I like the ending part with the creature thing. 

Letter Pending

 I did not follow up on my letter to my second grade teacher, whom I emailed back in October...

I will soon... 

I looked at my older posts... well...

30- The age of maturity?  I was playing Yakuza 7.  The guy's dad dies.  Later on in the year, my dad would have a stroke.  Life changed forever...? Nah, I still feel the same, I just have more to do nowadays...

31- I went back to school.  And I had my revenge.  I kinda had a send-off to video games, finishing Pokemon Arceus and Forgotten Land before turning 32. 

32- I finished school!  And I hung out with the girl who doesn't like me.  No connection whatsoever, terrible communication and we do not understand each other at all!  We hung out a total of 35 times at my house. 

 I still feel like a failure even after playing Disco Elysium. 

Moving on...

 I think I am moving on... 

To a life without video games.  Well, it's kinda "Mother 4".  Mother 4 is the life we actually live, right?  

I want to write publicly now.  I'm going to just lay everything out there.

Well, find me on Medium!