2012-2016... what did I gain...

Maybe I looked at more comedy stand-ups, and started valuing my own willpower, and how it is only my willpower that can get things done and nothing else..

What else was there... maybe I learned to apologize after fights much faster, though my apologies still feel more wreckless.  Maybe I should wait a day at max to apologize so I can say everything that needs to be said... nah, I think it should be quick and innocent with no excuses, not mattering how choppy the apology should sound.

What else... I was introduced to 48/46 G, Keyakizaka46 is a pretty big thing to me.  There was also Tumblr, watching e-sports, and finding some cool popular streamers with demeaners that hollywood does not value.  Like, it's actually cool to not be over-the-top loud and annoying, and just being calm and cool is sufficient enough to befriend people.

I also started reading actual novels around that time that helped comfort me, and build more empathy and sympathy to the world and society.

Yeah, they were not wasted years.