Dumb outline reflecting on entertainment I was into over my adult years... things in parenthesis is real life stuff, ie the maze of relationships and school related stuff.
2008: Nintendo DS, Kirby Super Star again, Back to the PS2: Persona 3, Atelier Iris series, Xenosaga.
-(Also when I did well academically. Had a good friend who lived close by but I suck.)
2009-2012, the Dumb Messiah Complex
2009: Being distracted, Persona 4, Pokemon, Ace Attorney, Back to MapleStory (Sad days), watched KDrama
-(Academic performance declined. Had fun with the Maxim though with Professor Anker. Had a good friend, was able to make her laugh. Was also invited to my other friend's birthday.)
2010: FFVIII, Detective Conan, more Nintendo DS, Professor Layton, Boston Celtics
-(Invited to my other other friend's birthday, and also, rethinking what to do... trying to find my identity, leaning on Christianity, Reading Partners, love for Children's lit and teaching revitalized)
2011: More Nintendo DS, PvP MapleStory Days
-(Clinical experience with ghetto friends, had fun literature subjects, reunited with a good old high school friend, good advice from the Biology professor, and Reading Partners.)
2012: MapleStory PvP friends + ending, being happy for a little while, Replayed SMRPG, Chrono Trigger, FFVII, FFIX, read first Murakami, reread DeathNote
-(New school but changed major immediately... academic performance declined once again, I put myself in a position where I could have never won. Met up with two old friends from high school, and met a cool girl. This is also when I started reading a bunch of Japanese literature.)
2013-2016, the Cold Years
2013: Watching and waiting, New MapleStory classes, Twitch.tv, Reading a bunch of Murakami....
-(Changed Major back, cruised through, brother leaving the house towards the end, completed lots of easy classes for the easy degree... Abraham Lincoln and English 19th century Literature. Stopped talking to cool girl, as well as my other two high school friends, started talking to this Filipino/Mexican other girl, and this other white girl, and another Mexican Tumblr girl a little bit though)
2014: Still obsessed, Nintendo 3DS, Pokemon X and Alpha Sapphire, Stepmania, Bunch of Stand-up Comedy and waiting... closed in on "the distance." (Feeling that the waiting was going to be worth it).
-(Professor... forgothernameTigermom with the nice tips, befriended two other Filipino people, some old Viet math guy, and this cool black guy from Zambia. Friend girl offered me to taste wine out of the same cup as her. Three cool new friends, and towards the end, Professor Sarvasy, philosophy, Telling it Slant... revisting elementary schools. Ms. Creely and Mrs Newman.)
2015: Still waiting, PersonaQ, Brain Age 2, One Piece, Full Metal Alchemist, Harry Potter, FFRK, Philosophy lectures, and Reboot MapleStory towards the end
-(Met up with decade long internet friend, met up with another internet friend, and the road trip in all directions with my Dad's side of the family)
2016: Finally ended it, The Closing of the Three Star Prophecy , Brain Age Concentration Training, stopped MapleStory. Obession with AKB48
-(Back in school, slave morality, blah blah blah...)
Anyways, it looks like I meet up with some really cool people, but my head is always in the clouds. The clouds being my internet life, and I miss out on cool real life things... I did not enjoy those moments as they happened because I kept on thinking about my life on the internet and how I love certain internet people. I can only enjoy them looking back. Or maybe it was because of my head in the clouds. It's because my heads were in the clouds that I was able to befriend real life people, because I wasn't trying too hard. That could be it, too.
And before all this...
2004: Golden Sun, Discovering the internet, first MMOs, Naruto.
-(Straight A's but got a B in Physics... the B haunted me my freshman year and beyond.)
2005: MapleStory, Bleach.
-(Kind of had a friend, but did not know how to be one.)
2006: Quasaron
-(First obsessive love, destroyed everything but clinged on to life because of it.)
2007: ZONE
-(Teacher Cadet was fun, I started talking, but everything I said was dumb.)
I think my life started going downhill after being introduced to the internet... I had breakdowns before that though, in Grade 7, when I was 12, but I was still a good student. I think I was messed up just because I did not know how to handle puberty, so a phase like that was probably normal for everyone.
I say my life is downhill, because I am really at a position I did not want to be in, Lol. I could have changed it, I really could have. I need more... courage? Like what Luffy and JK Rowling encourages. Which can be achieved by Plato's soul crafting and blah blah blah going out.
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