I keep trying to convince myself that I am alone and I have no friends... but I really do, in retrospect there were people in college that I actually talked to in a daily basis, and... stuff.

-I shared a glass of wine with this girl who was attractive.  But I liked someone else.

-I went shopping with this girl who was attractive, but i liked someone else.

-I talked to this cool, (well obviously he's cool because he's black), black guy on the train everyday, and we had deep meaningful conversations.

-I got along really well with this artist white girl.

-I worked really well with this Mexican girl with essentially with the same name as my brother (first and last name).

-I feel that I am best friends with this one Chinese guy.

-One high school friend of mine still talks to me, even though there's like a three week interval in between, still, she initiates conversation with me.

-And I have all my online friends.

I am not a loner, but I always tell myself that I am.

Maybe because there is not a single person who waits and waits for me to talk to them, like how I wait for her to talk to me.  If she talks to me again, then I probably wouldn't be writing something like this.