Tbh, I would have let her go much earlier if her changes were more noticeable, say, going out a lot more for isntance.

But she did not change.  She stays home and plays LoL all day and browses around.

I could have still been with her through it all.

And I miss it.

Semi-moving on was my defense mechanism.  Why did I not recognize it?  How come only now that it has been so long since we have talked, that I am able to put it into words?