Acceptance Phase, Part 2

Writing this kind of hurts, but thinking about writing it hurts more, so I might as well get over it by just writing it.

-I should have known that it wasn't just us two.  She was talking to other people besides me, despite how shy she said she was, and how special she made me feel.
-I should have got the hints of how she didn't watch my "justification" videos when we semi-argued, and how she refused to see where I come from.
-I should have got the hint when she never asked how I was doing.
-I should have got the hint when she replied and continued to go out with this other guy.
-I should have known that it wasn't me when she said I was "too calm"

Holy shit I'm dense as hell.

"It's obvious you can't you get a hint..."

Not really, I was just in denial...

No matter how deeps the talks we had, it meant nothing to her, but it meant so much to me... I can't believe how dumb I was to fall this hard... but then again she just seemed so perfect for me.

It's so annoying how there wasn't any closure.  She's inconsiderate as hell.  Now I know how it feels to not bring closures.  I wouldn't have to resort to that if she could have just told me things...

But maybe something like this was supposed to happen to me, to teach me how unpredictable things are and to not take anything for granted.

I give it..  three more weeks until this phase is over.