Despite What Has Happened

I should be extremely grateful that there's a thing that can't be taken away from us:  The memories we've created.

There is only one truth, and if she can kill it so easily, if she can kill this friendship so easily like that, then my initial reasons for my feelings did not exist.  Because I like her for how I think she sees this friendship.

Would you love me if you believed I loved you the most out of all?

Because of all these books I've been reading, the only thoughts I can think outside of my reading are of her.  I think its because I'm attached to her right now, and there will always be some girl that I have to like... but I don't want to categorize her in that of my past, because she is my present and I really want to know her...  only if she can tell me how she feels about me though.  But knowing her a bit, she's undecided so her decision will come as time goes on I guess... a more clear decision.  And as for now, I can see it circling the drain.  Friendships with her probably really is like a drain.  You'll plug the drain, and the sink won't get any fuller than it is, it can only sink down deeper into the hole... the hole is the death of our friendship.

But you know, this distance was probably a blessing in disguise sort of thing... I wouldn't feel this clingy if she didn't do what she did.

I think I've been in love three times then.  All unrequited, but its still love.  The first one taught me my coping mechanism and to man up.  Second one taught me to not be too avoidant and to fight for what I want... gave me courage basically.  Third one taught me to love, and to be patient...

Which is what I'll be doing. Waiting for her to come back.