-There are two feelings that I'll always try to avoid: Feeling stupid, and feeling guilty.
-I like the word capricious. It's something I feel a lot, and I think I'll be using it a lot. Though it makes me think of a guy with sunglasses... on a sailboat... as a cover on a pouch... with a small yellow straw behind it.
-I watched this documentary about disorders... mostly brain disorders and disillusions. It's a Nova, "Secrets of the Mind" by Dr. Ramanchandran. It got me thinking about some things. About how pain can just be the wiring signals gone wild without the pain actually happening, and how your brain can trick you of what's there and you thinking that it's not there... from this documentary I will conclude until further studies, that emotions override intellect. In our process of judging, emotions come first, intellect second. Emotions first, intellect second. Anyways, I think everyone should watch it, it's on Youtube, a worthwhile good 50 minutes of your life.
-On Thursday last week I went to the Academy of Sciences with my cousin and her husband, who is now my cousin... I guess I can call him my cousband... or not, just cousin, but anyways, I almost died because some fucking dumbass almost drove into our lane, literally was to the side of us merging. Maybe that's why I don't go out much, I don't want to die. Hmm. Anyways, they stayed with us for three nights, and it was fun too because they brought their dog Muggsie who is very well behaved. They walk him three times a day and they even bring him to work. I love Muggsie, and I think if all fails, I'll live in a mountain in a trailer with a dog. Or just an apartment or just a house with a dog... if I was really meant to be antisocial or whatever.
-"An idle mind is the devil's workshop." So it is. Must mean my mind is the devil's workshop right now. I see Mister Devil hammering something... he is sculpting something long and huge like a baseball bat. And hard. It's a wooden penis. And now he's wrapping it as a present with the help of his elf friends.
-I think it was two weeks ago when I befriended a fob that I played basketball a week before the two weeks ago. I noticed he was a fob when he mispronounced his name, William, as Weeyam. So I decided to talk to him when he was just sitting down and it was funny, this conversation became deep leading to how he came from China and that he has a brother in Colorado. It was fun actually trying to figure out what he was saying. Took me like a minute or so to figure out when he told me I look "E-ZA." And I'm like... E-ZA? Israel? Islam? And then it hit me, OH, ASIAN, I look Asian! And he was like YEAH! And then we talked some more, me telling him advice on how to learn English fast (he already has his Master's degree, but he needs to pass some English test or something.. and so he always comes to this center to play basketballl) and blah blah blah, I love trying to understand fobs because I know they don't really judge me I guess, and I think the conversation is actually worth initiating because I'm actually helping him learn English. He was like "I'm from United Stah" and I'm like "United States"? And I just got so confused because he should know and he should know that I know that we're in the United States... and then it HIT me again, "OH, UNION CITY" and he was like YEAH! So yeah, I like conversing with fobs.
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