... but I still would've took French if I were to go back.
I received a call from Downer Elementary School in San Pablo. They could schedule me an interview so I can be an After School Group leader. However, I researched the school, and it's rank 1 on API, meaning it's in the lowest percentile in meeting California's academic standards. Should I go for it? It's 90% Hispanics. What if I can make that school in the top 90 though? I shouldn't give up based on what I've researched. I haven't been to the campus yet either, though It's probably near Richmond High. Sigh, I'd have to put a lot of emphasis on actual teaching. I guess I can try it and see. I can't turn these students down (though the students themselves didn't ask to be taught), it's my duty as a future teacher (possibly) to make sure children don't falter in a young age, and to engrave in their minds infinite critical thinking experience and abilities so they can overcome obstacles in the future. It's my job, right? If I actually WANT to be a teacher, I should go for it, right? Because everyone can teach the fortunate. It's them who NEEDS other examples of a complete adult (though I'm not a good example, but I can try to be, and maybe I can be one once I work there).
I'm getting sucked into Final Fantasy VIII more than XII now. I'm digging the story as well as the music. And I don't have to grind. My brother picked up the strategy guide from the junkyard... I don't know if I should or should not use it. I wasn't in the beginning, however I got stuck on this time limit boss and I got scared that I would be wasting 30 minutes (though I'm wasting more than 30 minutes by just playing this game) by losing to the timer. My favorite character is Selphie so far... she even has an online journal just like me.
As of Final Fantasy XII, I need more Gil to enhance my equipment. My character levels are okay I guess, except that I have to really run away when I come across an Elemental. All my character levels are even, except Ashe, who I'm keeping in my party to see what level "I would be" if I kept a selected party of three, the same three throughout the game. I bought a Stone bow, and about 2 minutes later, regretted that purchase because of a Burning Bow with better stats was being sold at a shop 1 minute away. So I lost about 5k Gil.
Now I shall utilized my critical thinking abilities acquired from Professor Layton to figure out an IRL puzzle. I'm trying to play DOUBLE in DDR, except my only setback is that my dance pads keep moving around, and in this mode, there will an increased likelihood of twisting my ankle. I "missed" the down arrow, literally, stomping on the floor part with miscalculations. My dance pad is elevated about 2 inches from my carpeted floor, so I can definitely feel the difference, and a worry that I will twist it if I continue to play like this... especially since I'm just starting out, I'm not used to stepping so lightly and such. Now, the pads have zippers. The pads are like a case, and inside it, contains a big thick cushion, that makes it a borderline hard-soft pad. Maybe I can tie one cushion to another pad's cushion somehow, and zip it up, only to leave a hole for the rope or strap that's connecting the other pad. I just have to figure out what item I can use to make them stick together. Once again, I'll have a ghetto way of getting what I want.
Sigh I'm talking about games lolz. I better start my analytical essay soon... it's due in 2 days. I think It'll take me approximately five hours to complete. I'll engage in that when my parents come home so they won't see me playing games.
Dictionary.com's word of the day is jactation. It's a noun. And wordpress underlines it because it's misspelled, though it's spelled like this in the dictionary.com website. Oh well, I'll just not use that word.
Another thought occurred to me as I reminisce my childhood. I never seen teachers walking around in shops and whatnot. Are they in hiding?
Do I really want to be a teacher? My thoughts are so jumbled. I have so much mixed feelings, and I feel like I'm skipping a step in my life. A step that I have to experience before my eyes are completely on this prize. Maybe its my craving desire for complete independence. I should have realized that I can't fight certain urges back then, especially things that I really could have done in the past that could have resulted in a 100% coup de grace. But then again, I'll be independent far in the future anyway, is it really that worth it? I feel that I'm missing so much that I should be experiencing at my age. Hopefully I stay looking young at least (people still mistake me for a high school student).
It's also getting dark pretty fast. It is 6:30 and the sun is setting. Fall is coming soon. I faced a whole season without her since we met, and I didn't die. But then again, being dead must be more relieving than the process of dying or being killed, right?
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