Music On.

Updated, and remixed.

Goodbye my Heart
Without a Heart
Day by Day
Wedding Dress
Where U at

Moving to the music. On repeat.

Because I suck at conversing. These are my thoughts right now after 36 hours.

No more sucking up, I'll be real. I'll speak my raging hellhole I call my mind. Actually, its not that raging. There’s a few rainbows… Charmanders playing tag… a few Charizards flying around, and a few Magmars… yes, no fucking water Pokemon can counter attack this shit.

I've experienced it before, so I can move on quickly. Taking it up with strength and not pity (it rhymes!).

I read, watch, and listen to a lot of shit. Not random shit, but shit that strengthens me. And shit that makes me think about myself. I don't talk to anyone. I do this shit, and figure shit out on my own. I know if I talk to someone about it, I'll follow what they say, and it won't be my shit anymore. It's my problem. I'm only burdening the ones who suffered with my actions, and no one else should be involved. So hell yeah, this is making me feel better and confident about myself.

I can accept that unacception this time. I didn't feel it the first time because I knew you didn't know me. And you said you weren't going to marry him. I don't know anything about your relationship at all. Sorry for being inconsiderate. I did all I can for myself.

I'm not one of those wimpy bitches that stay with you only for the love that satisfies themselves, and can't face the consequences. Some fuckers hold on to their love to prove that their feelings are true, but what the hell is the point if its unappreciative and annoying as a fucking ass tit.

I'm not sad. My future plans are ruined, but I'm not sad. I look back to see what I've done, and I cry, but I'm not sad. I look back and cry when I see myself and what I have been through, but I'm not sad. But I have to say, I didn't love you just because you made me happy. I love you because you are you. I fell for you because you were you. I didn't think, I fell. Nothing was your fault.

I pressured those feelings out of my heart, and tucked it cozily into a random artery. An oxygenated artery!

Just sayin, Supah Saiyan.