My first thirty years of life is living life as it is inspired by art...

I think my next thirty should be about how my art is immitated by living...

...so I guess it just neutralizes and if I kill myself nothing would matter anyway.

Wow, I actually did have friends looking back..

Maybe I just never felt that way because I never felt real when I spoke. 

I think I changed a bit after 2010 maybe.  Or around January 2016.

I made my mom cry yesterday.  She really doesn't want me to kill myself, even after she's gone.

Grr Glenn, grr says Cyrus.

I hate people way too quick...

So I had essentially unlimited McDonalds...

I have all the games I wanted pretty much...

Had thought something was this thing but it's really not all that...

Yeah, too much in excess makes everything boring...

I lived a good life.

I feel like I can never live in the moment, and that I always look forward to the times when I can look back at moments. So in that case, I probably wouldn't mind at all if I just get fake memories inplanted on me.  It's not like I look forward to the future anyways.

During these times I am kinda glad that "the leaders of the world" care more about life than money. Hashtag faith in humanity.

I am going to abandon my video game hobby...

I am way more than 1/3rd done with life... it's too time consuming, and the only games I remember are the games I played when I was ten.  And the games I do actually play are all sequels and remasters, or a game with a few add-ons...AC:NH,  P5Royal, FFVIIRemake, Trials of Mana, XB Definitive, they are all games with bases I have already covered pretty much, and some of it changed for the worse... I'd rather replay what I have.

If I do play games, it would be replaying something, something from my backlog, or a co-op game...

Only because of my mortality, it just doesn't make sense to keep continuing this and not remembering my experiences.

The people who are making games are now probably younger than me... and yeah, I am just a bitter old man.  You kids get off my lawn!