Monday, October 24, 2016

I hate people's opinions so much... why does everyone have to think of everything!!!

And they just come out, spontaneously! Very sickening.  Recluse recluse recluse recluse.

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Lately, I've been thinking that "good" people are only good because it satisfies their ego, and ultimately, fondles their will to power.  And this satisfaction, is the primary reason to be, or act, good.

But now, I think it's just something natural.  Some people do good things, and some people don't.  Some people just help those who are in need of help, and it's just like that.  Yep.  You can say all you want about them, but they just do what they do.

Altruism.  Amygdala.  Altruism.  Amygdala.  Altruism.  Large amygdala... large altruism...

The desire to help people is genetic.  Just like everything else.  Of course, I have no basis or research to back things up, it's just thoughts.

Now I'm wondering... is the size of the amygdala collectively in the human species getting smaller or bigger?
I think everyone's depressed.  Literally, everyone in the whole world.

And there are those who are just more depressed than others.

And all these people who are depressed, like everyone, because everyone is depressed, think that they are not supposd to be depressed.  They think that they're not supposed to be depressed. 

So what do these people do?  They blame their depression on external factors.  Like, how everything is by chance, blaming DNA, and... for those who don't know much about Biology, blame something else, blame something prominent in the media, blame something that they see everyday... government.

Yes, government.  These people, these depressed people want "change."  But it's impossible. It's impossible to clense sadness away. Depression is innate.  They think they can be happy if Trump becomes president.  But it's not like that.  But they are going to vote for him.

Ugh!!! These "Let's Make America Great Again" people piss me off Lol, oh god, trying not going on Twitter or Facebook because that's all you hear in whatever is trending... wish I could block Trending Topics.

Friday, October 14, 2016

Ahhhh this cute Indian-looking girl in my class... who's four years younger than me, and a left hander, guessed that I was 19.  I wanted to ask her out, but it's too weird for me, because I'm so behind in capitalism life, which would lead to me being insecure.  It's cute how she just randomly talks to people around her, and when she talks it's like she's always thinking.  A very contemplating speaker, and observant, who doesn't sound flirty.  And she braids her hair into a tail, and it hangs over her front shoulder.  Very stylish. I don't even know if she's Indian, her skin is darkish though, but she could be one of those dark Filipinas... Nah, I doubt it, she has to be Indian.

I keep staring at her in lab, because she sits on the same lab bench as me, but there's another person in between us, but I'm closer to the back, and she's closer to the front, so when the teacher is lecturing, I can see her, and I always look at her and her glasses, because her side profile makes her look kinda old, so I was thinking she was like a thirty year old Lol.

Anyways, I was stressing out on Final Fantasy Record Keeper, because the event for the Memory Crystal III ends in two days, and I didn't think I could make it.  I tried an all FFVII team with full relm synergy equipment and my team was obliterated.  But today!!!  I composed a cheese team with all healers and super soul breaks, and I cheesed to victory.

Minwu has learned: Will of the White Mage
Cloud has maxed out: Blade Beam
Penelo had maxed out: Intercession
And my trump card, Garnet: Dagger of Resolve and Divine Guardian, maxed.

Tyro didn't max Sentinel's Grimoire but I brought him in anyway for Full Break. I also brought along a Tyro with Sentinel's Grimoire as a Roaming Warrior.  Look at my twitter for my builds.  I also didn't max any of the abilities except for Curaga probably.  Cloud was regular Attacking most of the time since I ran out of ability uses.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

KITAAAAAAAA!!!

Iriyama Anna, was following zero people on Instagram.  Until today.

She's following one person.  One person only.  And it's Kizaki Yuria.  YuriAnnin, next big major pair now that YuiParu is breaking down to Yui and Paruru.

Monday, October 10, 2016

"Trump says 'just words, folks.' It's his accusation and his defence. Words don't matter. Facts don't matter. If they don't, we're all lost."

That was JK Rowling's response to Trump and his celebrity-pussy-grabbing "locker room" talk. 

Maybe that's why I'm lost.  I don't believe in words.
I watched this talk about altruism, and why more people are altruistic than others...

And then it showed that less altruistic people have a smaller amygdala than those who are not altruistic...

This reminded me of this show I watched, where it showed that people in the 70s were making babies by combining high IQ people's sperm with egg, so that the child will have a higher advantage in this modern society, and they interviewed the babies who are now adults (and the adults are geniuses, the experiement worked).

Then I thought about how scientists would enlarge baby's amygdalas to have a happy cooperative utopia world...

I was also wondering... if the egotistical person, which is the opposite of the altruistic person have a shorter amygdala.  But that talk that I watched showed that psychopaths have a shorter amygdala.  I don't think people with high egos are psychopaths.  I wonder what the relationship between the amygdala and the ego is.  Or how about, what the association between the ego and being altruistic is.

Idk.  Amygdalas. Neocortexes.  Ego.  Shit.
Kinda disappointed with the Janken results... but I like how my oshi passed the first round.

No one even made a Gif set of her or posted any pictures of her on her Tumblr tag, so that makes me even sadder.