I think everyone's depressed.  Literally, everyone in the whole world.

And there are those who are just more depressed than others.

And all these people who are depressed, like everyone, because everyone is depressed, think that they are not supposd to be depressed.  They think that they're not supposed to be depressed. 

So what do these people do?  They blame their depression on external factors.  Like, how everything is by chance, blaming DNA, and... for those who don't know much about Biology, blame something else, blame something prominent in the media, blame something that they see everyday... government.

Yes, government.  These people, these depressed people want "change."  But it's impossible. It's impossible to clense sadness away. Depression is innate.  They think they can be happy if Trump becomes president.  But it's not like that.  But they are going to vote for him.

Ugh!!! These "Let's Make America Great Again" people piss me off Lol, oh god, trying not going on Twitter or Facebook because that's all you hear in whatever is trending... wish I could block Trending Topics.

Ahhhh this cute Indian-looking girl in my class... who's four years younger than me, and a left hander, guessed that I was 19.  I wanted to ask her out, but it's too weird for me, because I'm so behind in capitalism life, which would lead to me being insecure.  It's cute how she just randomly talks to people around her, and when she talks it's like she's always thinking.  A very contemplating speaker, and observant, who doesn't sound flirty.  And she braids her hair into a tail, and it hangs over her front shoulder.  Very stylish. I don't even know if she's Indian, her skin is darkish though, but she could be one of those dark Filipinas... Nah, I doubt it, she has to be Indian.

I keep staring at her in lab, because she sits on the same lab bench as me, but there's another person in between us, but I'm closer to the back, and she's closer to the front, so when the teacher is lecturing, I can see her, and I always look at her and her glasses, because her side profile makes her look kinda old, so I was thinking she was like a thirty year old Lol.

Anyways, I was stressing out on Final Fantasy Record Keeper, because the event for the Memory Crystal III ends in two days, and I didn't think I could make it.  I tried an all FFVII team with full relm synergy equipment and my team was obliterated.  But today!!!  I composed a cheese team with all healers and super soul breaks, and I cheesed to victory.

Minwu has learned: Will of the White Mage
Cloud has maxed out: Blade Beam
Penelo had maxed out: Intercession
And my trump card, Garnet: Dagger of Resolve and Divine Guardian, maxed.

Tyro didn't max Sentinel's Grimoire but I brought him in anyway for Full Break. I also brought along a Tyro with Sentinel's Grimoire as a Roaming Warrior.  Look at my twitter for my builds.  I also didn't max any of the abilities except for Curaga probably.  Cloud was regular Attacking most of the time since I ran out of ability uses.

KITAAAAAAAA!!!

Iriyama Anna, was following zero people on Instagram.  Until today.

She's following one person.  One person only.  And it's Kizaki Yuria.  YuriAnnin, next big major pair now that YuiParu is breaking down to Yui and Paruru.

"Trump says 'just words, folks.' It's his accusation and his defence. Words don't matter. Facts don't matter. If they don't, we're all lost."

That was JK Rowling's response to Trump and his celebrity-pussy-grabbing "locker room" talk. 

Maybe that's why I'm lost.  I don't believe in words.

I watched this talk about altruism, and why more people are altruistic than others...

And then it showed that less altruistic people have a smaller amygdala than those who are not altruistic...

This reminded me of this show I watched, where it showed that people in the 70s were making babies by combining high IQ people's sperm with egg, so that the child will have a higher advantage in this modern society, and they interviewed the babies who are now adults (and the adults are geniuses, the experiement worked).

Then I thought about how scientists would enlarge baby's amygdalas to have a happy cooperative utopia world...

I was also wondering... if the egotistical person, which is the opposite of the altruistic person have a shorter amygdala.  But that talk that I watched showed that psychopaths have a shorter amygdala.  I don't think people with high egos are psychopaths.  I wonder what the relationship between the amygdala and the ego is.  Or how about, what the association between the ego and being altruistic is.

Idk.  Amygdalas. Neocortexes.  Ego.  Shit.

Kinda disappointed with the Janken results... but I like how my oshi passed the first round.

No one even made a Gif set of her or posted any pictures of her on her Tumblr tag, so that makes me even sadder.

Fucking Slave Morality

It's so annoying!

In my lab practical, skills test, I was putting away the tubes, right?  Because I was done.  I created my streak plate and finished my Gram stain.  The tubes were in the front of the class room, and I was going to store the tubes that I used (E. Coli broths and slants) in the front rack, because that was where I obtained them. And then the instructor stopped me, and told me that they belong in the biohazard corner because they were contaminated.

I obeyed her, and just stored it back at the biohazard corner.

Why do I obey "people of authority" automatically?  Why do I obey first, and think later?  Do I not want to cause trouble?  Yes, I don't want to cause trouble.  But it wouln't hurt what I'm thinking in my head... which was: my aseptic technique was perfect BITCH.

This instructor, thinking she knows everything... which she does.  But still, people of authority are so annoying, it pisses me off. The aftertaste pisses me off.

But it does make sense though, because the next class after me would have used the tubes in the front, and what if I did contaminate it?

I think, what annoyed me most, was how she said "it's contaminated."  Like, she really thinks I contaminated them because of bad aseptic technique.  Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you. But then again, it's possible that I did contaminated it.

I thought all these convoluted JRPG storylines were original...

I feel that, it turns out, they were all emulating the complicated plot of Neon Genesis Evangelion, capitalizing on an audience's desire for more confusing stories in the mid 90's...

So it was all about making money.

The ideas were fantastic.  But the motive is a letdown.

But so what, right?

Everything is inspired by something, it's impossible for something to be completely original. Unless... these creaters just threw in random philosophical jargon without clear connections, random plotwists, making me believe that it's something great, but really isn't, then I would just feel deceived. Would I like it if it wasn't like this?... maybe not actually.  And if I didn't like it, I would get better grades in school.

Then again.. I would never have known about Nietzsche if it wasn't for Xenosaga. And Nietzsche existed a century before the 90s.