I feel like I have to replay Chrono Cross... just because the story is unessesarily convoluted.  Here are some points I am confused about, or some other questions that I have:

-The Dragon God.  So it's advanced Dragonian technology, consumed by Lavos.  What I don't understand is, how is a physical avatar form so impactful.  I don't understand.
-The Counter-balance thing.  So Terra Tower was pulled in to counter-balance the appearance of Chronopolis.  Is this thing for everything?  So if Crono, Lucca, Marle and gang went back in time, what would be sent along with them?  Shouldn't something have been sent too, to counter-balance them during the events in Chrono Trigger?

Meh there's more but whatever, my arm hurts. Can't type.

I hate it when people think they got me all figured out... (maybe that's why I don't like being close to people, maybe I really don't like being understood)...

And then I thought of the planet... and all the scientists who try to understand the planet... and if the planet is like me, wouldn't it want to unleash disaster on those who try to understand it?... or maybe it already has...

Wait!  I'm not saying I would unleash disaster.  So nevermind... But!  What if the planet is kinda like me in that way, but is more aggressive to unleashing disaster than I am?

Nahhhh.

If it is, it would have just did an earthquake to wipe everyone out.  The planet is killing people slowly... viruses and cancer and stuff take a long time too.

My definition for maturity: Conforming without complaining. (Conforming is a negative word to me Btw).

I was thinking of Chrono Cross since I just finished playing Chrono Trigger for like the 20th time.  I played Chrono Cross when I was 12, and again when I was 19 or something like that.  Of course I used the wiki then, to understand it because the story is convoluted and I'm stupid.  And now I'm reading about it again and it makes more sense, and I'm going to replay it.  But that got me thinking of Xenogears, which is also a JRPG that I have, but never finished... and I heard that story is convoluting as well.  The best JRPG stories are all convoluted...

But I thought about it again... and read about it.. and both stories are ultimately about love, like romantic love.  Love across parallel worlds, because of spoilers Serge blah blah Kidd, and love across the eternal recurrence, which is Fei and blah blah that one girl.  So boooo!  I think these love stories surpass Murakami's though, 1Q84 sucked ass, and Murakami was trying to make a complicated super love story thing.  I think Xenogears and Chrono Cross's concept of complicated love is... more complex so it's vastly superior.  Meh, whatever.  Booooo, love!  Schopenhaur says love is just nature's trick into making us reproduce.  And I agree with him.  

I guess I'll finish Suikoden... and then Suikoden II.  I didn't spoil myself, but I think it's not about love. At least I hope it's not.   But then again, that part in Suikoden I just passed... this cool lady who was my age just died, and her boyfriend still doesn't know about it.  At least it's in the middle of the game, and not the end ultimate conclusion sort of thing that Chrono Cross and Xenogears does with their concept of true love. 

I feel like I'm the only person, when seeing people, who thinks to myself

"this person is cute.  And this person's going to die, and is going to have a funeral someday.  With a coffin in the center with arms crossed, and people crying, and touching the corpse... and so is this person, and that person."

It's kinda lonely.  I should think of the cremated guy from Crow's Blood then, how it was kinda funny how he was waking up to flames, being cremated alive.

Nevermind

I'm so excited for Moon now l0l

Looking forward to the next two months...

Janket tournament with Riona in October, and Pokemon Moon in November...

Pokemon Sun and Moon is coming out soon and I don't feel excited... I'm sad because I can't feel excited.  I started tearing up because I miss that feeling, that feeling of feeling excited, like when I was ten when I got Silver version or 12 when I got Sapphire.

And then I kinda laughed because in my mind, I imagined something dramatic and said doushite, probably because I watched too many Japanese dramas.

Oh, it was my Youtube account's 10 year anniversary yesterday.